Bullied 2 (A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 39

Harry´s POV

"Give it to me." She says and steps closer to me and the bag I´m still holding infront of me.

"What were you going to do with these?" I ask her, ignoring her invitation. Lucy rolls her eyes and even shakes her head.

"I said, give it to me." She says louder now and I wonder where my real Lucy is. But I guess she´s gone now for quite a while.

"Not before you answer my fucking question." I growl at her. Of course I know what she were doing with those, but does she seriously think I will give them back to her? Does she think I´m that stupid for not realizing what´s really up with her? Lucy chuckles and leans back at the wall.

"Killing myself. That´s what I´m going to do with them pills." She honestly answers, without even thinking twice about it. The world feels like it´s crashing right infront of me. Did I hear right? Her honest words hurt more than my thoughts about it will ever be. The fact, that she really doesn´t want to live anymore, hurts so damn much.

"We´re going to the bathroom now and you will destroy them in the toilet." I point to the bag but Lucy only starts laughing.

"Do you seriously think I will destroy them now after putting such an effort in it for actually getting them? What is wrong with you, Harry?" Lucy asks me and I can only shake my head.

"No. What is wrong with you?" I ask her. I´m sure my blood pressure increased a lot by now and I don´t even want to know how fast my heart is beating.

"What´s wrong with me? My whole world is ruined since mom died and you ask me what´s wrong?" She screams even louder now. I´ve never seen her like this before.

"You´ve changed so much, Lucy. What about me, your dad and Lena? Do you even care about us?" I ask her. I feel some tears building in my eyes and I don´t even think about holding them back. She doesn´t care about my anyway. I´m fucking sick of pretending that I´m fine. I also have feelings.

"That´s what pain do, Harry. Pain changes people." Lucy says, her voice now calmer than ever.

"And I´m sorry for you, but this pain I´m feeling right now is stronger than love will ever be." She contuines and almost whispers now. I hate hearing this. I hate hearing that she wants to give up. I know that she could do this. She is so fucking strong but she just doesn´t see it. We went trough so much... and now she seriously wants to give up? She wants to leave me alone, because the pain is stronger than our love?

"But the pain will go away again. And our love will stay." I tell her. I wipe my tears away with my hand and try to calm down. Crying won´t help anything now. I just want that she stays. Lucy slowly shakes her head and her eyes get watery too, now.

"Why won´t you just let me go?" She whispers and sinks down at the floor. She lays her head on her knees and closes her eyes. Lucy´s hands are wrapped around her long feet and in that moment, it hits me. This may be hard, but if that´s what she wants, I should let her go.

I quickly sit down next to her and take her hands in mine. I press some kisses on her forehead and fingers.

"If that´s the only thing you really want, I will." I whisper and my tears are back again. Being without her, will hurt as hell but if that´s what will make her happy, I will go through it.

Lucy opens her eyes and we both look at each other. I realize that the bag from the pharmacy is still in my hands so I quickly lay it in her lap. Lucy looks at it, then back at me. She smiles at me, and that smile is the most honest I´ve seen for weeks.

"Thank you." Lucy says and I respond to it by pressing a kiss to her mouth. I haven´t kissed her in days and god, I´ve missed her. If she really wants to leave this world, I want to kiss her one more time. Lucy´s hands immediatly go to my hair and she tucks at it, like she used to. After a few seconds she suddenly stops and pulls away from it.

"Please make love to me for the very last time." She says. Our faces are wet from all of our tears and I don´t think we´ll stop crying, but it´s not that it would matter right now.

"I would love to." I tell her. Lucy puts the bag next to her, so we both can stand up. We quickly slip out from our clothes and god, I will miss this sight.

Her naked body is the most beautiful thing in this world.

And nothing could compare to this, to her.

We don´t need much foreplay as we lay down on the bed. We both know, that I just need to be inside her, as soon as possible.

This time, it was probably the most intense time we ever made love to each other. And I will never forget it.

(I´m so sorry the story is like that but I just hope you like reading it. Please don´t forget to vote and comment. It always means a lot to me! Also, the chapter is a little bit shorter than usually, but it didn´t take me that long to update since I don´t have school right now and I will update soon again. I love you all.)