Bullied 2 (A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 31

"Is it okay for you to spend christmas with my parents this year? I know we wanted it to spend it on our own, just the two of us, but I don´t want to let mom alone, to be honest." I tell Harry and he nods. I imagined christmas this year to be much different, but you never know what happens and things can change way too quickly. I thought Harry and me would spend it in our apartment, decorate the tree together, cook together and just enjoying the time. We would sing some christmas songs and unwrap our presents then. The next day we would have visited our families. But now I don´t want to leave my mom alone, not on christmas.

"Yeah, of course. I understand that. I just want you to be happy." Harry tells me and wraps his arms around my body. It feels good to be back in our apartment. After talking to my parents at home I decided to come back to Harry. I do visit mom every day now, because I can´t stand the fact that she may be gone soon and I didn´t visit her enough.

"What would you do if your mom died?" Harry suddenly whispers and a shiver runs down my spine. My heartbeat quickens and I have to let out a deep breath. Of course I´ve thought about that a lot in the last few days but I still can´t imagine her being gone. Mom has to take lots of medicine now and she goes to the hospital regulary. I know that she doesn´t always feel good, but she is alright, at least she tells me so.

"I don´t know Harry. I can´t imagine her being dead. She´s one of the most important persons in my life." I honestly tell him and Harry´s grib around my waist tightens. I know that he´s scared of losing me. I don´t want to leave him and I know that I´m over that shit but I just can´t imagine living without my mom.

"I understand but you can´t leave me alone. I will always be here for you baby, always." Harry says and I smile at him. I know that he will always support me, no matter what happens and I´m so grateful for having him in my life. I still can´t believe why I deserved him, sometimes.

"I love you so much Harry. I just hope that mom will be alright again." I tell him and he presses a kiss to my forehead.

"Maybe you should go to your therapiest again and talk with her about what happened. I know she can´t heal your mother but I do know that she always makes you feel a little bit better." Harry mumbles while he presses some kisses down my neck. Fuck he needs to stop doing that.

"Yeah I will, but please stop doing that." I plead but Harry only chuckles.

"It´s been way too long baby. I miss you. And my little friend down there misses you even more." Harry presses his body more to mine, until I´ve been inbetween him and the wall. Fuck, I miss him too and I miss making love with him. It seems like everything is okay between me and Harry, but I do know that a lot of trust is probably gone because of what I did with that guy.

"I think we should take this to the bedroom, shouldn´t we?" I softly ask and he quickly agrees with taking my hand in his and leading me to the bedroom.

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Christmas with my parents has been wonderful, and it even reminded me of when I was younger. It was strange though and everyone was more emotional than usual, of course it´s because of mom´s illness. But christmas is a festival full of hope and joy, so I prayed a lot for her but I also tried to be happy, just enjoying the time with Harry and my parents, being grateful for having them. Mom is doing alright and you won´t even see that she is ill if you don´t know it.

"Here, that´s for you. Merry christmas Harry. I love you." Harry smiles at me and unwraps his present. I just made him a calendar for 2015 with photos of us, a picture of us we made in our relationship every month. I think it was a cute idea and it seems like Harry likes it too. Plus I´ve bought him my favourite fragance I love smelling on him. I know it´s not much but I don´t have much money and it still comes from my heart.

"Thank you so much. That´s very cute." He gives me a quick kiss before handing me a small present.

"And that´s for you my angel." Harry smiles at me and I quickly unwrap it. I open the small box and a wide smile forms on my face. It´s a silver bracelet with some small stars on it and there´s a lettering on it. It says:

"Love is the only thing that keeps people alive. H&L."

My eyes get a little bit watery but I quickly blink a few times. This is the cutest present I´ve ever got and it´s so personal. I can´t believe I´ve got someone like Harry.

"Thank you. I love it so much." I tell him and wrap my arms around his tall body. God this boy is my everything. And no matter what happens, if I got him, I always will be alright.

"I hope you like it baby." He whispers and I nod my head a few times.

"I love it more than anything. This is seriously the most cutest and personal present someone ever gave me. It means a lot to me and I will never give it away." I say and hug him even tighter. We are interrupted by my parents´ coughing. Harry and me quickly turn towards them. They chuckle and I frown.

"I hope you also got good presents from us." Mom says and I step towards her and hug her tightly.

"Of course I did, but you are not my boyfriend." I laugh and my parents and Harry start laughing as well. My parents bought me some John Green books, I´ve wanted for a long time now and they bought me the DVD from "The Fault In Our Stars" - my favourite movie ever. I´ve painted them a big picture and I think they like it.

Even if there happened a lot of things lately, christmas this year still has been great with my parents and my boy.

(Sorry this chapter may be a little bit short, but I still hope you like it!!

We celebrate Christmas here today already and I wish you all a very merry christmas and some enjoyable holidays! Be grateful for what you have in your life and think of those who have it worse.

I love you all so much and I´m so glad that some of you always vote and comment and appearantly like the story haha :)

I hope I will be able to update before 2015. Thank you for everything!)