One month....• WHY DONT WE

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Tuesday
10.53am
July 17
late start day

Bethany's POV

i woke up to a knock on my bedroom door

sigh "its technically five to 11" Jonah said
i didn't move "i know"
"right okay then" he said and shut the door. i went back to sleep for a bit, then got up and put on a gray thrashers hoodie, black ripped jeans and high top red converse - to match the flame - i didn't put any make up on, nor did i do my hair. i went downstairs and Jonah had made me a comfort pancake - i guess he knows then - i sat down at ate it really slow, and then when i was done i went to brush my teeth, i did that slow too, i dont know why.

Jonah drove us to school and thru out the day i just kept to myself and did everything slowly - i wasn't functioning properly. i had physics first and second and when i got there the bell hadn't rung yet so everyone was around the room talking, i saw Corbyn sat at the back with one of his friends talking, i kept looking back at him when i sat down, and one time he looked at me too. i completely forgot but we had a fieldtrip to some museum - but it was all the science classes - so at least gabbie would be there.

"you should all have worksheets and a buddy" the professor said.

at the museum...

my buddy was supposed to be Corbyn - obviously but when we got on the bus i sat with gabbie and asked if she had a buddy, she said no, meaning i went with her. as we were walking in i looked behind me and saw Corbyn walking behind Jonah and one of their friends - he looked really upset. it was actually quite fun walking around and doing the work with gabbie until she needed to sit down, i told her id go finish it off by myself, and i did. i walked past Corbyn a lot, and only once did he manage to look back and see me, that's when i stopped at one of my "checkpoints". i stood there reading the plaque and by habit i grabbed the necklace he got me and played with it, somehow the minute i did that i had the urge to look to one side - and of course i locked eyes with him, he lightly smiled and i could see the pain in his expression, all i could do was look away quickly, then walk away just as fast - i got to this really nice space exibit showing all the stars and i thought he would of stayed where he was, but a few seconds later he was stood next to me, i looked over and at the same time he did too, then we looked back at the display. i didn't relise but i was still playing with the necklace and i could tell he was looking at me

"o-oh sorry umm - you probably want this back right?" i said and started to take it off
"o-oh yah.... yeah s-sure....." he said, he didn't look at me. i put it in one hand and gave it to him, he took it from me and wrapped it around his hand, then he backed away slowly and left me, i went back to find gabbie luckily she hadn't moved so i just sat with her.

when i got back home i didn't speak to Jonah as i got in i just went to bed again.

the next morning....
9.53 am

i sat up and looked around my room - Barnaby was sleeping next to me. i couldn't get up i felt weak and useless without Corbyn, i decided to just lay in bed all day. but i had a idea, so i got changed into leggings and a t-shirt before texting someone i hadn't texted in i dont know years maybe

Christina

Bethany
can you come to were we used to hang out, under the pier, in like 15 minutes?

i sat there and waited but she didn't respond, i decided id just go there anyway, the walk might clear my mind. when i got there all of out stuff was still there, we had a little sofa put up right at the very back - the water couldn't get that high - and i sat there for ages thinking for what went wrong, i had my eyes closed but i heard footsteps approaching, so i opened my eyes and it was Christina.

"hi" i said and looked down
"hey" she replied and leaned against one of the legs? of the pier, there was an awkward silence for a bit.

"y-you probably know but me and Corbyn broke up the other day" i said and nodded, trying to keep the tears in
"mhmm" she replied
"one of the reasons for that was you. he always put you first - like he wasn't over you - i didn't even know you two dated" she didn't say anything, but she was just looking around
"y-you are so wrong about Corbyn you know? he is completely fucking obsessed with you" she chuckled "oh and he has told me that - many times" she added
"oh and the reason i always go to him for help is not to hurt you, Bethany, hes the only person ive ever really trusted - and my grandad has just died and my parents are always fighting - Corbyn is good at helping, you should know"
i nodded. she sat on the floor while i was on the sofa and we stayed there for a good hour id say, we didn't talk much but it wasn't awkward. even tho i absolutely hate her, i felt happy again, like we were kids you know?

after that we both went home - of course i walked back - she lived on the other side of town so she went a different way.

a few hours later

i was laying in bed watching TV and i got a text, it was Daniel

dani-boy💙

dani-boy💙
heyyyyy

b💛
hellooooo

dani-boy💙
you remember we have that thing in the library tomorrow right?

b💛
no i didn't remember but now i do!