Star Struck (JJBA x Reader Oneshots) [COMPLETED]

Risotto Nero | I Need You Damnit!

GENDER NEUTRAL READER ANGST/FLUFF

~language and mentions of death~

(Art is not mine cred to fioletovyy on twitter)

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The corpses of Sorbet and Gelato were fresh in their minds as the rest of La Squadra di Excusioni walked out of the abandoned warehouse-turned-operating room, and only one other person was on Risotto's mind as he spoke.

"Everyone, go home. Tell your family you love them or something. Just be with them tonight. We'll figure this shit out tomorrow."

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I was just about to head to bed when the door unlocked, setting me on edge. Who could it be at this hour? I snuck around the corner with a knife and met eyes with my nearly non-existant boyfriend, Risotto. 

"Hey- why do you have a knife?" was the only thing he said.

I let out a dry chuckle as I shook my head. "Normally when you show up it's earlier than this, so I was expecting a robber."

He blinked and said in his still monotone voice, "Sorry, I had a really long day."

Oh. A really long day, or a really long month and a half? I bite my tongue, trying not to spit my venomous words at him. "Well I'm sure you're tired then. I was about to go to sleep, so I guess I'll see you in bed," I say flatly, turning to "our" bedroom.

"I was hoping that we could have a movie night or something." I look back at him, almost in disbelief. "I just really need you right now." I was astonished at the audacity he had to come back after a month and a half of complete radio silence with this bullshit.

I snapped.

"And where have you been when I needed you?"

"What?" He was completely caught off guard, giving away he didn't even realize that he was absent. I guess that tells me how important I am.

"Where have you been when I needed you? You never come home anymore, I can barely call our shared bedroom 'shared' anymore, and, not like you'd care, but I've needed you for like the past month! But you'd know that if you would just check your damn phone every once and a while." I realized the tears slowly sliding down my face, only aggravating me further. "I need you, damnit! I really, really wish I didn't, but here I am."

He was frozen. He opened his mouth to speak a few times before choking out, "I didn't know, I'm sorry. I just-" He stopped, eyes widening as he grabbed his phone from his pocket, noticing the calls I sent every day, then every other day, then once a week, and the texts.

Hey baby, just making sure you're okay. You didn't come home yesterday so I got a little worried. (Received 5 weeks ago)

Hey Rizzy, just wanted to say I love you. Come home tonight. Please? (Received 5 weeks ago)

What did I do? Was it me? Please tell me. (Received 5 weeks ago)

Just say you don't love me. (Received 4 weeks ago)

Hey. I just got a call from my sister. Call me when you can. (Received 3 weeks ago)

Hey, I really need you right now. If you're still there just text me. (Received 3 weeks ago)

You're an asshole, you know that? My mother is in the hospital, I'm hurting so badly and you dont even give a shit do you?! (Received 2 weeks ago)

I'm sorry. Just call me when you can, ok? (Received 2 weeks ago)

She's gone. (Received 6 days ago)

Dinner's in the fridge. Eat it if you want. (Received 5 days ago)

I'm leaving you. (Received 2 days ago)

Wow, I'm so important. I'm just talking to myself aren't I? (Received 2 days ago)

His face fell and he put his phone on the counter, rushing to me. "I had no idea. I just got so caught up in work-"

"Yeah, your totally legal 'protection agency' or whatever. Not sketchy at all."

"Two of my friends were found dead." I froze and looked up at him as he pulled me into his arms. "I'm sorry it took them dying for me to come home and realize that if they can die, so can you. If anything you could die easier than they did. I didn't know that your mother passed, but I'm so, so, so sorry." He buried his nose into my hair, holding me close. "I just want to hold you for a while."

"Fine. I'm still upset but we can deal with that later. Just, try to come home more. Or at all." He nodded and I felt a few wet spots on my scalp. "Let's go watch a Disney movie. I know we could both use it." I went and put on 'The Little Mermaid' and grabbed a fluffy blanket. I turned to see him just staring at me from a few feet away. "C'mon. If you don't I'm just gonna go to bed."

"Sorry, I just realized how much I missed all of his. You, movie nights, I might start crying if we cuddle." I laugh lightly, walking over to him, pulling him to the couch.

"Then cry. We both need to, so lets do it in a comfy blanket." I kissed his cheek as I settled into his chest, less irritated with every rise and fall of his warm chest. "I missed you, damnit."

We both definitely cried that night, and there were many more movie nights and cuddles after. It just took a few reminders of our mortality and our almost annoying need for each other for us to figure out that we're stuck together, and we weren't leaving anytime soon.

At least we thought.