I Will Always Back To You

CHAPTER 14

ILANG LINGGO na rin ang nakararaan simula nang umalis si Felix, at heto nga ako ngayun kasama si Shawn.

" Are you okay?" Shawn asked. I look at him coldly and sigh and heavily let a loud breath. He is still here in the hospital. And I am the one who's taking care of him, because that's what he wants.

I miss you, Felix

May namumuong luha na sa mga mata ko kaya naman agad akong pumunta sa banyo at doon umiyak nang tahimik.

Nang maging okay na ako ay lumabas na ako at nakita ko si Shawn na nakaabang saakin.

" What?!" I asked. He looked at me and stared at me. Nakaramdam naman ako nang pagkailang kaya naman naupo na lang ako sa sofa.

" Sasama ka sa America right?" He asked. I told this about my father, and he's just supporting me, and sucks, because I don't know what to do! Damn it!

" What do you want me to do?" Biglang tanong ko kay Shawn na ikinagulat niya, we have just weeks and he have to operate as soon as possible. I'm afraid to make mistake and regret it for the rest of my life, but, the man that I want to lay on for the rest of my life, never been seen.

" I want you to go with me." Shawn said. I close my eyes and rest my head on the couch and answered him.

" Then I'll go with you."

You want this? Okay, I give it to you Felix. I'll give it to you!

AFTER OF days, weeks, months, and year passed, and it's almost 10 year before that mess happened to my life, before he left me, before he broke me into pieces.

My heart swallowed, an anticipating pain, a crucial declare of my death. It's been ten years, and in that ten years, I haven't seen him.

I don't know where he is now, what he was doing for that year, and anger arose on my heart, anger, that no one can stop. I become somebody.

Learning a life when I'm was too young, I'm 21 years old back then, when I give myself to a man, that all I know, will be my last. But reality always deployed the fairy tale.

There's no prince charming, because your aren't a princess. 

Loving in a young age will destroy you, not just once, but for many times. But, hurting, be on pain, because you loved, is not a sin, it's a lesson, and the teacher is the experience.

" MOMMY! HEY MOM!" I heard a loud voice of a girl, my head automatically looked at lil cute girl, and now approaching me. "Mommy!" She hugged me and I smiled at her father.

" Baby, behave Mommy is tired." Shawn said. I smiled at them and looked at Shawn.

He suffered a lot in his condition, it's a long run for him to be perfectly get healed, we spend almost 5 years before he totally cured. Cured.

And after that, a marriage comes next.

" Hmm, anung iniisip mo?" After of that ten years, I stayed here in America, my parents visiting me, but, going back in the Philippines not on my mind.

I have so many bad memories there, and I don't want it to remember. It's enough that I'm still at in scrunching pain, the brushes doesn't healed, and it will remain forever. The suffocating memory, that hunts me every night and day. I don't want to go back there anymore, I'm so afraid.

" Hey.." I feel a soft peek on my cheeks and I saw Shawn worriedly looking at me. I smiled at them and hugged him.

" Yeeeyyy! Group hug!!!!!" The lil one said.

" Anastasia! It hurts!" Her twin groaned. "Fuck off!" Agad na nag-alburuto sa galit si Shawn at sinaway ang anak.

" Natasha!!! You're mouth! No candies for you!" Shawn said. Natasha groaned and hug me.