Guilty Pleasures of Life

03 | lights

💫Third Pleasure💫

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On that Holy night, the light shone brightly.

In the deep night sky, prayers are sung for the world's better peace.

I really hoped that the lyrics for this song are true.

Every Christmas Eve I casually would watch the first snow from my window and would give everyone wishes for Christmas. Somehow, I didn't understand the meaning of all that. Maybe because I was caught up in my own world of thought. I didn't really think what was all that about.

But then again what is life all about?

I had somewhat of a friend, who is goddamn religious. He had one day a conversation with his friend about the importance of the existence of our God. Passionately he talked about how He exists in our life and how He gave our life and we must acknowledge His existence. He also added even though we can't really see Him and feel His presence in our life, He takes a huge role like a father and guides us to a better path.

All I could do was to listen and maybe to understand.

But not necessarily and there was a catch. God drops us clues to a better path, but it's up to us whether we want to follow these clues or not. I listened to his conversation, firstly unconsciously then I started paying attention to what he said.

I disagreed with some of his viewpoints.

I had questions.

A lot.

I don't think that's pretty easy as he said though.

How do we know exactly which is His path?

How can these clues not be confused with our parents' clues?

And also, how can or can't they are the same?

We are celebrating tonight His son's birth, Jesus. He came to guide us by God as a mission. Maybe Jesus saw hope in our humankind and tried to help in vanquishing all evil in our world by using the power of God and faith. But we backstabbed Him, and we crossed Jesus. I'm not sure about this but I think Jesus became God's right hand. There is an old saying "Making mistakes is human, though forgiving them is holy". We refused his help in guiding us and this was our mistake because we didn't recognize its value.

So, He limited his guide, not to all, though.

Some people were good, and some were bad. But they all can't change to good or to bad. A lot is offered to us. The path to a better life, but that is pure. You give kindness and you get kindness. Despite that, it's often confused with a better life, but it has the fate to drift to a bad life.

Watching straight but walking upside down.

These clues are given to us when we feel confused about which way to go. I might not be religious, but somehow these are some facts that are true despite that some find them old myths. Exactly on that night, I thought I might have felt His presence.

A calming voice whispered to my ear. It wanted to guide me to a new place or a new experience. From my window, it was like a wakeup call from my vortex of thoughts. I felt the need to go out and let it guide me.

As a sudden instinct, I went to my room, wore my winter clothes.

After that, I went out. A lot of people were out on the streets spreading their holiday cheer. With tons of laughter and wishes, everyone looked like they had a great time. I was on my own finding something that didn't make any sense in all that chaos. I wandered for many hours in the streets. So, I decided to go out by the Artificial Lake Park. It could help, plus I have always had my thoughts cleared there.

In pitch darkness, everything was so peaceful. Then something like an angelic voice interrupted the peace there. Curious I listened to it more carefully. Little rays of moonlight went through many branches of the tall trees. On each spot where the light hit the ground, there was a little footstep.

Its light reminded me of the Christmas lights we put on the tree. It gave me a bit more courage to move forward. This was all a gigantic clue.

What did it mean though?

Was this something bigger than I thought? A part of my destiny yet to be revealed.

At the end of the road, I came across a large field. But there was nothing. A little bit confused I looked everywhere for more details, still nothing.

I wanted to make this work.

Disappointed I wanted to leave, but the songs for this holiday were on my mind. The same songs were sung by the voice that got me here. It all meant something. The lights and what they held inside hope would help me. A sincere ballad burst out of my heart. As soon as I started realizing the path to His way, something happened. A curtain of light appeared. My hands wanted to feel the warmth, so they went immediately in.

After that little snowflakes fell on my hands.

These were special because it seemed like that were crafted with care. When it all disappeared, I looked down at my hands. A sudden breeze stole the snowflakes and flew away. But only to reveal underneath a beautiful ice key.