Dating a Charmed One (Rewritten)

Chapter 9

"I'll be fine. See you tonight" I reassured and Piper frowned but nodded as she disappeared out of the door and I closed it behind her.

My legs wobbled and I sank to the floor as I bowed my head and covered my face with my hands before sobbing loudly. I was so glad that I was on my own because no one would be able to hear my cries of pain, especially after yesterday with how badly Wyatt had reacted.

I'd woken up before everyone this morning and had made myself a hot cup of tea, feeling better at the sweetness of the drink. I had even eyed the fruit bowl, deciding whether to eat an apple but after thinking about it, the idea of the fruit hitting my stomach made my stomach churn uncomfortably so I'd stayed sitting on my stool, until Piper woke up. She hadn't been happy when she saw the leftovers of my meal from last night and had asked why I hadn't eaten, only to become worried when I'd explained that I wasn't feeling hungry. I was never not hungry, especially after being at school all day.

Wyatt, Mel and Chris had soon appeared and Wyatt had made sure to sit on my left, with Mel on my right but Chris had decided to sit and eat his breakfast at the table. I was aware that Piper had noticed this but I just smiled happily at her, hoping not to worry her. She had frowned, but seemingly decided to leave it alone.

The silence had become unbearable and Wyatt had nudged me worryingly when I hadn't helped myself to anything Piper had made for breakfast. I just couldn't stomach the thought of eating. I knew that my body needed to be fuelled and I wasn't doing it to be difficult. It was just that my entire body ached too much to think about food.

Leo had eaten a quick breakfast before saying goodbye to us all and disappearing to Magic School. Soon enough, Chris left for school without his siblings and Piper had asked if Chris was okay. Wyatt had lied, saying that Chris was having bad dreams and so he was leaving Chris to deal with it himself since he didn't want to talk about them. If Piper was suspicious, she didn't say anything and after that everyone else had left, but Piper had wanted to stay home, seeing that something was wrong with me. I didn't want the company. Or at least, I didn't want Piper's company because I knew I would only worry her further.

With a sigh, I pushed myself back to my feet and gathered my bag and jacket before putting them on and locking the front door after myself. The weather wasn't too bad today. It was still a little cold but the sun was trying to weakly peer out from behind the white clouds. I made my way to where I wanted to go, deciding to walk there instead of shimmer. My demonic half had caused a few problems already, I didn't want more reasons to dislike that part of myself.

Until you accept me, you won't ever be happy  my demonic half spoke to me and I rolled my eyes before huffing in annoyance.

"Because you link me to things I don't want to be linked to. I do things that I don't want to do because of your influence."

You wanted to punch those people more than I did. They weren't a threat until Amy was hurt. I did not tell you to do that. I huffed at this and shook my head at my demonic half.

You liked it, Lila. You know you did.

"Of course I did. I'm evil" I stated stupidly and if my demonic half had a body, I could imagine it smiling sadly and shaking its head at me.

There is no such thing as good and evil. The only thing that exists is power and what you choose to do with that power  my elements whispered and I sighed, looking down at my feet as I made my way to the one place I felt safe- other than the Manor- hoping that I would be welcome.

I carried on walking until I came to the street that I needed and walked down to the building where I was hoping to meet the people I wanted to see.