catching odds ¦ ryujun

035

note: prepare your tissues hehe 🤡

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tuesday; 15:21 [heressy]

tapos na ang meeting pero andito pa kaming sampu sa dining hall. yes sampu, kasama itong kambal ni seint. ang fiancé naman ni uther ay nauna na umakyat sa magiging room nila for their stay here as well.

"so, you're seint's twin brother?" azeal asked.

"technically, yes." he said smiling.

hindi ko alam anong mararamdam ko. kanina ko pa hindi maiwasang hindi siya pagmasdan. kamukhang-kamukha niya talaga si seint. pati boses nito ay kuhang-kuha rin. wala akong mapintas na pagkakaiba in terms of physical appearance. and as i have observed, the way he behave and get along with us, he's friendly and so kind.

"tangina? bakit kaboses niya rin talaga si seint? what kind of sorcery is this?!" rinig kong bulong ni asherha sa tabi ko.

"you're damion, right?" edri asked.

"yes. damion lacifer frizas." sagot nito at talagang napanganga kami ng banggitin niya ang full name niya.

seint angelo. damion lacifer. anong kagaguhan ang trip ng parents nila sa pagpangalan nila?!

at pansin ko rin na kung gaano ka-santo ang pangalan ni seint ay kabaliktaran ito ng kanyang ugali. at ito namang si damion ay kung gaano ka-demonyo ang pangalan ay kabaliktaran rin ng ugali. yung totoo?! ginagago ba kami dito?!

"where were you all this time? bakit hindi namin alam na may kapatid si seint? and talagang identical twin pa?" naguguluhang tanong naman ni iver habang karga si amber na natutulog sa mga bisig niya.

"the truth is i already met you guys." nahihiyang sambit niya.

"ANO?!" sabay-sabay na tanong namin dahil sa gulat. napatingin tuloy ang ibang tao dito saamin kaya nagsorry kami. at buti rin ay gumalaw lang si amber at hindi nagising sa sigaw namin.

"teka... teka... nameet mo na kami?! akala ko ba nasa canada ka lang all this time?!" gulat rin na tanong ni vannette na napatango rin si psychord. tila bago rin sa kanila ang balitang ito.

"oo nga. nasa canada ako sa buong buhay ko. umuuwi lang dito for a vacation o di kaya si seint at daddy ang pumupunta sa canada para bisitahin kami ni mommy. and it happened that 5 or 6 years ago ay umuwi ako dito. i didn't really experienced going to school, having friends, and such normal life that a teenager should be experiencing. bahay at hospital lang ako sa tanang buhay ko because of my illness." he paused.

"unfortunately, i'm not as healthy as my twin, seint. i was born with a congenital heart disease. may butas ang puso ko."

bigla namang kinurot ang puso ko sa narinig. he's suffering from an illness and couldn't live the life he wanted. while seint, on the other hand, lived the life he wanted but only for a limited time. that must be so hard and painful for their family.

napatikhim naman ako saka napaiwas ng tingin ng maramdaman kong nagbabadyang mamuo ang luha sa gilid ng mga mata ko.

"kaya nga rin si seint lang ang kilalang anak nila dad lalo na sa business world. i literally lived my life as a shadow. so nagpumilit ako sa kambal ko na for just a day. for once. kung pwede ko ba mabuhay as him. carefree and happy. he also wanted to see me being happy so he granted my request. i lived as seint for a day." he paused. trying to calm himself as tears also started to cloud in his eyes.

palihim ko namang pinahid ang luha kong tumakas sa aking mga mata. even the girls are also teary-eyed now.

"he let me introduced and know about you guys. and that's the time when na nadetention kayo for the 3rd time together. tayong sampu." he smiled, a genuinely smile that i almost thought he's seint and not damion.

"you must've been living a hard life." uther commented.

"but you said you have a heart disease. are you fine now?" vannette asked.

"don't worry guys, i'm fine now. i now have a healthy heart. i had my operation 5 years ago. the day seint died?" tumingala sya at kita ko kung paano tumulo ang isang luha niya.

"the day seint d-died.... he gave me his heart." napayuko nalang siya at saka hindi na napigilang umiyak.

and as for me, i was frozen to where i was seated. tears started racing to fall down.

"h-he d-did?" i asked. my voice are cracking so bad.

napaangat naman ng tingin saakin si damion. his eyes is in sorrow.

"he did. nauna kami sa hospital dumating noong isinugod siya that night. he was still breathing. buhay pa siya. and since major head injury ang tinamo niya, he knew that the success of the operation is low. kaya sinabi niya na kapag hindi naging successful ay he wanted to give me his heart. but trust me, he wanted to fight. he didn't want to give up easily. he wanted to live for you guys, for the girl he loved. but he didn't made it. before even his heart stopped beating, he gave it to me. he gave up his life for me." hagulhol niya.

my tears just flowed non-stop. my angel is so selfless. kahit alam niyang buhay na niya ang nakataya ay mas inuna niya pa ang ibang tao. ang kapatid niya. he didn't want to be selfish. kahit patay na ang utak niya at kakasimula pa lang tumigil ng function ng katawan niya, kahit tumitibok pa ang puso niya, he still chose to gave up his life for someone he know could live longer than him.

how can he be too selfless? it warms at the same time tears my heart apart.

"diba andoon ka sa operating room that time, heressy?" edri asked. she's crying too now. they all are.

"i... i was there. i was watching how dad tried to save him... but i can't focus as tears kept on flowing and my heart is too heavy. all i know is when i heard the machine beeped indicating that his life went flat, he's dead by that time.... lumabas ako ng mismong operating room after that and just waited them outside to calm myself. to cry out loud."

i felt azeal held my hand and asherha patted my back as they are both seated next to me. napapunas naman ako ng mga luha ko habang napatingala.

"seint.... seint didn't want you to know. your dad kept it as secret as well." biglang wika ni damion na nakayuko lang kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.

"w-what do y-you... mean?" i asked.

"he don't want you to think that he gave up his life and gave his heart to others just because he don't love you that much. he loved you more than you know. kaya ayaw niyang ipaalam dahil baka mas masaktan ka. baka isipin mo na igigive up niya lang ng ganon ang puso niya." he said.

that triggered my tears again. racing to fall down non-stop, like a faucet.

seint is so selfless and precious. we don't deserve him. he don't deserve to die either. but some things are really out of our control. absurd as it is but we just can't control things the way we wanted it to be.

  
   
  
 

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di ko alam naiyak rin ba kayo sa chap na  ito but i did. dami kong iyak habang sinusulat ang chap na ito ㅠ.ㅠ