catching odds ¦ ryujun

003

saturday; 15:26 [azeal]

"hi seint! i'm sorry if i haven't visited you for so long." i smiled as i ran a touch of his name in his grave.

"don't worry seint, i have already taken my time and i have already forgiven myself. iyon naman ang gusto mo diba?"

tumingala ako para pigilang tumulo ang mga luha kong namumuo sa aking mga mata.

i sighed before looking at his grave again.

"alam mo seint, sobrang nahihirapan pa rin ako. hindi ko alam anong gagawin ko. but as much as i want to, i want to set aside everything. pero hindi ko alam kung iyon ba ang tamang gawin dapat. i know i did the right thing back to 5 years ago, but now.... i don't know."

i sighed. "but you'll guide me, right?"

i pursed my lips together as i silently sat there.

"azeal."

agad namang napaangat ang tingin ko sa taong tumapik sa balikat ko. ngumiti siya saakin at naupo sa tabi ko. fixing the flowers she brought to the side of seint's grave.

"heressy." i called out.

it's the first time i saw her again in person after what happened 5 years ago. it has been 3 years since we fixed our relationship and i'm too glad that we still made it.

"i didn't expected na dito pa tayo magkikita ulit." she chuckled.

"yeah. heressy, thank you ah and i'm sorry." i said looking at her.

she smiled and hugged me. " don't mention. you deserve to be forgiven. you weren't the one to blame after all. what happened was just an accident that no one foresaw."

"thank you." i said.

umayos ulit kami ng upo habang si heressy ay kinakausap ang grave ni seint. madalas pala bumisita si heressy dito kapag may oras siya. it must be so hard for her but i'm happy that she's doing great, still, despite of what happened.

matapos ang ilang sandali ay naisipan na naming umalis.

"here." abot ni heressy saakin ng isang chocolate frappe na binili niya sa nadaanan naming cafe.

"thanks."

"kamusta sa paris, az?" she asked.

"mahirap pero kinakaya naman." sagot ko at sumipsip sa straw.

"babalik ka pa bang paris?"

"hindi ko alam. probably i will, but i'm already thinking of branching out resto et itzy here. so if ever babalik man ako ng paris maybe for months lang at uuwi ulit ako dito para pagtuonan ng pansin ang pagbabranch out."

"but if ever, dito ka na magbebase or paris pa rin?"

"i'm not sure. wala pa rin naman sa isip ko iyan."

tahimik ulit kaming naglalakad. papunta na kami sa cafe ni ash para kitain ang girls doon. napagpasyahan kasi naming magkita-kita ngayon. ibibigay ko na rin ang mga pasalubong ko sa kanila.

"azeal?" tawag ni heressy.

"hmm?" i hummed.

"have you visited your niece already?" she asked looking at me kaya napalingon rin ako sa kanya.

i sighed. "i'm planning to pay a visit tomorrow."

napatango naman so heressy at tahimik lang kaming naglakad ulit.

i'm really not sure how will it go for tomorrow. will i be able to meet him with them? i honestly don't know how is he doing. kung nakatira ba siya kasama sila ate and such. part of me want to know but also don't want to know.

hindi ko alam...

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