catching odds ¦ ryujun

049

friday; 23:26 [azeal]

i sighed looking at the mess. andito kami ngayon sa isang hotel room kung saan kami lang nag-ooccupy dahil nagpaakyat si kris ng karaoke machine.

si edri ay kanina pa kumakanta. talagang lasing na. si uther naman ay nakasandal na sa balikat ni nina habang natutulog, si nina rin ay tulog na ata dahil sa kalasingan. si vannette naman at psychord ay nagsisiksikang matulog sa maliit na sofa. si kris at asherha ay nagkaharap na inihiga ang ulo sa maliit na mesa habang nakaupo sa sahig. si damion naman ay sya lang pumapalakpak at sumasabay sa mga kanta ni edri. hindi kasi uminom si damion dahil conscious na sya sa health niya. si heressy naman tahimik lang ring kumakain at bored na pinagmamasdan si edri. kunti lang rin ininom ni heressy. si iver naman ay kinakandong ang si amber na natutulog sa lap niya. kunti lang rin ang ininom niya dahil.

kumuha nalang rin ako ng cake na nasa mesa at kumain. hindi rin kasi talaga ako uminom. ever since mangyari iyon 5 years ago ay natrauma na ako at hindi na talaga ako umiinom. natatakot kasi ako na baka may madamay na naman ako kapag uminom pa ako.

"hindi pa ba tapos ang isang yan? nakatulog na ako pero pagkagising ko kumakanta pa rin?" reklamo ni uther na nagising.

"bayaan mo na. brokenhearted pa rin ata e." natatawang wika ni heressy.

"at kasalanan mo." gatong rin ni iver kay uther.

"ganon talaga. may mga taong pinagtapo lang pero hindi itinadhana. same as sa inyo ni azeal." uther shrugged.

"that's the reality." i shrugged too.

hindi na kami umimik pa. si uther rin ay di pa nakontento at nag-abot na naman ng isang beer in can at uminom. inabutan na niya rin si iver na tinanggap lang at hindi pa ininuman. si heressy ay kumuha na rin ng iba pang makakain at inabutan si damion. nagpatuloy na lang rin ako sa pagkain.

isusubo ko na sana ang tinidor ko na may cake ng mapahinto ako sa ere.

alam na alam ko ang tugtog nito. ito yung duet namin ni iver na nauwi sa ligawan. puta.

I like your eyes you looked away
when you pretended to care
I like the dimples on the corners
Of the smile that you wear
You wore them more with her
I knew and I was scared
I let myself fall deeper
But I was prepared

mas lalo akong napatigil sa version ni edri. break up version to ah?! i liked you so much, we lost it.

napatingin rin ako kay uther na napahinto sa ere ang pag-inom. oo nga pala, they broke up kaya natatamaan rin sila sa kanya. and that first lines, perfectly hit them dahil si uther ay may iba na.

I like your shirt, the one I gave you
Can't forget how smell
But now on different shoulders hang
The jacket I used to wear

hindi ko alam pero bigla akong napatingin sa gawi nila iver, he was also halted from fixing his jacket that served as amber's blanket.

taena. bakit masakit?

before he could even looked up at me, i directly averted my gaze away.

I loved you for so long,
Sometimes it's hard to bear
But after all this time,
I wish you well from here

I loved you every minute, every second
Loved you everywhere and any moment
Always and forever was just for a moment 'Cause
I was not the one
I don't know how
I loved you 'til the last of snow disappeared
Missed you on the rainy days of the year
Never knew of pain like this
But I've got to know
Thought I loved you so,
Why did you go?

i know i always said that i let him go because that was the right thing to do. but was that really right?

I hate the way you let us go,
Like it was all just nothing
I hate the way you hit the notes,
But not the words I'm saying
I hate the little things
Like when I'm unaware
I still remember how
We broke so perfectly

edri cried so hard while singing that line. it must be hard for her na naghiwalay sila nila uther because of the sake of uther's business. absurdly.

"i'm sorry." i happened to heard uther whispered, sniffing. he's silently crying too.

Though sometimes when life brings me down
Time can heal my heart
Through the bad rainy day
I know that I will be okay

i bitterly smiled. no matter how hard and painful it is, no matter how long it will take. one day... one day we'll wake up feeling okay because we already accepted our fate.

I loved you every minute, every second
Loved you even if it was for a moment
Always and forever can wait
For the time because
You were not the one
I know that now

napatingin ulit ako kay iver and our eyes met. his eyes are telling something. i half smiled as i looked away, trying to stop my tears to fall down.

In a world still full of life, i see color
In a bit of time cause we deserve better
Always and forever when the right one comes
Because part of loving you is letting go

nadurog man kami noon, but we now knew, we deserve better. there are things that no matter how painful it is, letting go is the best choice.

"Part of loving you was letting go." pagsabay ko kay edri sa pagkanta niya sa last line.

i smiled.... bitterly.

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