The two masks

Chapter 1

Jesy POV:

I'm currently sitting on the couch with my boyfriend of now four years, Chris. I actually can't believe how fast these four years have passed. I'm also very happy that we didn't have that many arguments yet. I ask myself everyday how I get so lucky to have met him. At the moment I'm scrolling through my Instagram feed, liking a few edits from fans and giggling at how adorable they are when they freak out after I liked. My documentary ‚My dark secret' aired last year and I even won an award for it, more like the fans won it for me and I'm beyond grateful and happy that it actually had such a positive effect. „Jes?" I look up from my phone and move my head up from his chest and stare into his piercing blue eyes „Huh?" „Do you wanna go for a walk babygirl?" he softly kisses my temple and I nod. I get up from the sofa and pull him with me into the dressing room. I just chose some camouflage cargo pants and a crop top, while Chris is already dressed in ripped jeans and a white shirt. I wanted to head into the bathroom when he grabs my waist and turns me towards him „Where ya goin?" I smile „Getting ready." „You don't need makeup you're beautiful in any way." I giggle and he kisses my nose „Thank you babe but I would like to get ready. I look gross." I pinch his side and start running „Catch me if you can slow butt!" I squeal as he actually catches me, picks me up and throws me over his shoulder „What did you call me?" he laughs and I can't stop laughing. He puts me back on the ground and we head to the bathroom. I start doing my makeup as he wraps his arms around my waist „Chris are you trying to tell me something?" „Me? No. Why?" I put down the highlighter and his eyes meet mine in the mirror „Dunno just a feeling." I close my eyes as I spray on the setting spray when I feel his breath tickling against my neck. I shiver slightly and open my eyes and look at him „You are a little koala today baby." I scruff through his hair and start brushing mine and putting it in a ponytail „Ready to go?" He nods but won't lift his head from my shoulder „Then let's go." „Naaah I rather wanna stay like this. Inhaling your wonderful scent." I giggle and tickle him „Come on you wanted to go for a walk so now move ya ass." „Oi careful miss." he pulls away and fake pouts. I roll my eyes playfully and peck his lips and we go downstairs. There, I quickly grab the housekeys and lead us outside. It was warm and very sunny. As we start walking, he wouldn't stop staring, he even tripped a few times. In a nearby park we stop at a bench and sit down. I fix my ponytail and turn to him „Baba what's wrong?" he smiles „Nothing I just keep asking myself how did I get so lucky to call you my girlfriend." „Awww babe..." I lean my head on his shoulder as we watch some kids on the playground „Jes?" „Yea?" „Do you actually want some children some day?" „Actually yes." I stared into the distance as I was brought back to reality when I feel him turn my head to face him. I blink a few times „Sorry what did you say?" „I asked if you're okay baby." „Huh yea I just daydreamed. What did you wanna say?"  He smiles softly „I said that there is no need to rush. Whenever you're ready baby." I tear up and kiss him as someone screams my name. We pull away and see a group of girls running to us. I smile as they recognize us and want some pictures and I sign their phone cases and listen to them. I always love it when fans tell us little stories. It isn't rare we used some stories of fans for a new song, because they inspire us more than they know. After they left, we decided to walk back home. But the tall brunette girl stayed in my mind, more like her words. She had huge selfharm scars like me and her words keep spinning in my mind  ‚It  was something only I could control and it was like my little secret that only I knew about...' I shook off my thoughts as we finally reach my house. I unlock the door and we enter. We quickly get changed into our comfy clothes and plop downstairs on the couch „Jes babe you okay? You've been awfully silent on the way home." „Yea it's just this tall brunette girl and her words." „They still in your head?" I nod „Baby I understand. I know you felt the same but please promise me that if you feel like you'll relapse or you are having these thoughts again, that you'll tell me and the girls okay? We don't want to lose you." A lump forms in my throat but I nod. What was going on with me? Why did I suddenly feel like something terrible is about to happen? Or maybe I'm imagining things and I'm turning insane. Who knows? But this feeling wouldn't leave me...

You asked, I listened. The sequel to ‚Lost'. I sat pretty long on the cover and I'm quite happy of how it turned out. I have a whole concept on my laptop already so I got quite a lot of ideas and plenty more time to upload🥺❤️