adore you // [h.s]

36

Harry

Things are starting to pick up with work and being completely honest I am starting to get stressed. I rarely ever have panic attacks but I've been having them on a daily basis. I usually have to slip away and calm myself down before I get too bad.

I'm sitting in my third meeting for the day and I've completely lost interest. I just want to go home and lay down with Audrey. I missed her.

I had barely spoken to her in days. I was leaving every morning before she got up and getting home after she was already asleep. The only time I spent with her was when we were sleeping. The only time I heard her voice was when I broke away to call her for five minutes.

"Harry, how do you feel about this?" Jeff patted the table in front of me to get my attention.

I felt like a deer in headlights, I had no clue what we were talking about. I was too distracted thinking about how much I missed Audrey.

"Where's your head today?" Jeff said with an annoyed tone. At home where I wish I was. "Do you think this would be a good date for the release of lights up?"

"That's perfectly fine with me." He just nodded then went back to conversing with everyone else.

"Are you wanting to do any other music videos or leave it with lights up? I think we should do a couple more, but it's entirely up to you."

"I think we should, do you think we could do one to adore you?" Jeff just smiled, "I loved every single one of these songs, but that one holds a very special meaning to me." god, I miss Audrey.

"That should work out perfectly." I just nodded while my eyes darted to the clock hanging over Jeff's head, 3:47 pm.

I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes, I was exhausted. I was on my fourth cup of coffee for the day and nothing was helping, I needed sleep. I needed three days to catch up on sleep. I wasn't going to feel any better unless I got a decent amount of rest.

I leaned over to Jeff, "Can we call it a day? I can barely hold my eyes open."

"After this meeting, I'll give everyone a little time to relax but we have to put finishing touches on the tracks. I'm in the process of scheduling you for a photo shoot for this album as well."

"I promise we are almost done with all the music. This next month or two will be very stressful, but I know it's going to be worth it. It always is."

I knew Jeff was right, but that's not what I wanted to hear right now. I wanted him to say that I could go home and get some rest, but I knew I wouldn't get any. I don't remember being this stressed whenever I was making the self-titled album, but I think a lot of this has to do with Audrey.

I wasn't really allowed to bring her to any of these meetings, and quite honestly I'm not sure if I wanted to. I didn't want to bore her to death. Studio time is so much more amazing than sitting through hours and hours of meetings.

"That's all for right now, everybody take an hour then meet back at the studio for a little last-minute touch up on some songs."

I didn't waste any time rushing out of there. I pulled my phone out of pocket while I jogged to my car. I needed food and to hear Audrey's voice.

"Hey, baby." Her voice instantly made my heart run a million miles a minute. "How is everything going today?" I could hear so much shuffling going on in the background.

"It's going, I guess."

"Do you think you'll be home before midnight tonight?"

"Honestly, I don't think so." I heard her sigh, I knew this was bothering her as much as it bothered me, "How's my sweet girl?"