I Love You Keith

Matthew Knight

James POV

Well fuck, now I had to tell them. "Fine, here's what happened...

So at my old school, in 7th grade I realized that I was gay, and I realized that because of my friend, Matthew. Matthew Knight. We did everything together, we went to the movies, to parties, all that. We were pretty social, and since his sister was in high school and got invited to parties a lot, we sometimes tagged along with her.  We got pretty close, and then one day, when he laughed, I realized that I like liked him. I was freaking out. I hadn't even considered that to be a possibility, me liking boys, but there I was. I crushed on him for all of seventh and most of eighth grade. I told my parents about it, and whenever he'd come over, my mom would start making weird jokes, particularly about weddings and couples. But I never told him. His parents were really into religion and stuff, and they though homosexuality was a bad thing. Also, he was my best friends, and one of few friends I had. I'd known him for years, and I was worried that if I told him, he'd reject me and it'd destroy our friendship.  But then I thought that he returned my feelings, and he had a history of doing things his parents didn't want him too.  And even though I thought he liked me back, I wasn't sure, and I didn't want to act on misunderstood signals. But then he told me and our friends that he was moving to North Carolina at the end of the year. And I decided, what the hell? Why not tell him before he leaves. So a few days before they left, I did tell him. But it didn't go well.   He got really mad and started yelling at me, calling me a whore and a faggot. Then, after he calmed down, he looked me in the eyes. He said he was sorry for reacting that way, but he was okay with it. He said he had kinda figured that I was, and then he politely told me he wasn't interested. At least, not in me. He liked our friend Micheal, and he made me swear not to tell him. And it's kinda funny, because a few of our other friends had been saying that they were gay for each other for the longest time.  After he left, we stopped talking. Then, me and my family moved back to Texas and I started at the Garrison.  Then i met Keith, and you know about all that." 

The others stared at me in shock. Keith responded first "Really? Fuck, thats harsh." Shiro and Adam nodded "I had no idea. Is that why you got mad at your mom?" Adam asked, and I nodded. "Yeah. But even I can admit, I talked about Keith a LOT." Shiro smiled mischievously "How much?" I smiled back "A lot. I spent the entire car rides to and from the Garrison telling my dad about him, then I did the same thing with my mom when we got home. And over one of our video calls, I called him cute in front of the other. What made it even worse was the fact that all of them knew we liked each other." Keith turned pink, and Adam raised an eyebrow. "All of them? Even Lance?" I laughed "Oh hell no. Lance doesn't know. The others know we're dating, but Lance doesn't even know that we like each other." "How did the other find out?" Adam asked, and Keith laughed "A few days ago. When we made cookies. SOMEONE" he said, glaring at me "Decided to slap my ass with FLOUR all over his hands when I was wearing my NEW, BLACK jeans. Things were said, frosting was stolen, tricks were used, and.....we ended up kissing on the counter." Shiro and Adam started laughing "Really? THAT'S how they found out? You couldn't have just told them like normal people?" I shook my head and Keith laughed "Shiro, what about any of us is normal? We're working at a space exploration place, and while most kids our age are getting their drivers licenses, we're in flight simulators. Most kids older siblings go off to college, but nope, mine's going to space!" We laughed. "Keith's right. Nothing about the Garrison or the stuff it does is "normal". But seriously, making out on a counter? Why'd you have to tell them like that?" I raised an eyebrow "What makes you think we were making out?" Adam shrugged "Seems like something you'd do. And since you have thoroughly ruined this game, I'm going to bed. And you're not drinking any more or getting any tonight." He said, directing it at Shiro and taking the bottles to the kitchen. "Aww, booo." Keith cringed "Oh god. That's where you were going? Shiro that's disgusting. I don't want to hear any fucking." I smiled and leaned forward to whisper in his ear "You'd be fine if I was the one doing the fucking." Keith's eyes went wide and he slapped my arm "James!" he whisper yelled, "Stop it!" I just shrugged and wrapped my arm around him. "Whatever you say, Kitten~" He groaned and leaned into me "Stop." Shiro rolled his eyes "And neither do I. Don't do anything." He stood and went to his room, Adam following not too long after. We heard a muffled conversation through the walls "No, you're drunk." "Boo." Keith cringed "That, would be traumatizing." I nodded "Yeah."

"So..what do we do now? I don't wanna go to sleep yet." I shrugged "I don't know. Wanna make out?" He looked at me "Are we really that predictable?" I shrugged "Maybe. But do you?" He smiled and blushed a bit "Yeah." I smiled back "Great." and pulled him into a kiss. It got heated, and Keith ended up in my lap, tounge in my mouth. He started grinding against me, and I groaned in pleasure "Ah, Keith.." I could feel myself start to get hard, and then I remembered that we weren't alone. I pushed Keith a bit, and he pulled back, lips slightly swollen and smiling "Hmm?" I shook my head "We can't. Shiro and Adam." He sighed "I know." I pulled him into a hug "I'm sorry. Someday. But for now, lets just go to sleep." He nodded into my shoulder, and I carried him to our room. I laid him on the bed, and fell next to him. I was asleep the second my face hit the pillow.