BECOMING LISA'S TRAINEE

23

🌞 NEXT DAY

Still the same. I was a loner. Nobody talked to me. Back to square one.

The mentors let us do the tone of "Do Re Mi".

Ms. Lisa came in late.

All throughout I felt awkward around her. I don't know if she did too. I was avoiding her but there are times that we see each other at the corridors but I just bowed as a sign of respect since other trainees were watching too.

It was already the end of the week but we really didn't have any interaction at all.

Until I went to the restroom and seeing her there too.

After washing my hands I was about to open the door when she called for me.

"Jennie.."

I didn't respond.

"Until when are we like this?"

Like this.. Like what?"

"Aren't you gonna talk to me? Until when?"

She grabbed my forearm.

I just let it pass and looked at her until she removed it.

"Why are you avoiding me throughout the whole week? Even outside? And you're not walking along with me anymore."

Didn't she know about the rumors?

"Sorry Ms. Lisa but can we talk later? I really have to go."

I went out and ran home as fast as I could.

But.. Why did I run??

I placed my head under the pillow.

Someone pressed the doorbell.

Fvking housekeeping service again.

But it doesn't stop.

So I opened the door.

It was really them.

"You got on the wrong room again, please.. Let me rest or I'll report you to the management."

"N-no no wait."

He gave me a note saying "Talk with me in my room, I'll be waiting. -LMB "

MB..

I got it and closed the door.

Why does she want to talk with me?? Gosh.

I didn't have any plans to come up, really had none.

I went outside to see if the housekeeping service was still there to make them give the note I made for her.

But they weren't.

Until I saw Ms. Lisa going out from the elevator.

"Jennie!"

I bowed then walked fast to my room.

I've been avoiding her a lot lately but it had a negative effect on me. I felt guilty and it hurted to be distant with her.

"Jennie, can we talk??"

I was in the room but I couldn't even shut the door because she was already standing outside.

So I opened it widely instead for her to come in.

I sat down the bed while she was standing.

"Can I sit down?"

"Y-yeah..."

She grabbed a chair which she positioned in front of my bed.

But she just stared at me for two minutes without saying a word.

Did she come just to stare?? Isn't she supposed to be saying something?

"Are you gonna say something or stare at me whole night? Because I want to sleep already."

"Why are you in a hurry?"

She was sitting sophistically in front of me. Grabbing my attention on her long-legged legs.

"No, it just seems like you're not going to say anything Ms. Lisa."

"Ms.?"

"Yes, Ms. that's the right term since you're my mentor and I'm your trainee so I'm not dropping it. You know about formality right?"

"Jennie, don't be silly."

"Silly? There are rumors all over the agency about us Ms. Lisa and I even got a first warning for something which isn't even true!"

I stood up and walked repetitively on the same direction.

"I didn't know you got a warning..."

She was still sitting down and I was still walking back and forth.

It felt like she was a kid who was being given a sermon by her guardian.

"You wouldn't really know because the rumor didn't affect you much while it affected me a lot!"

"What do you mean it didn't? If you only knew how they offended me while we were on the meeting! I bet only Seulgi shut her mouth about it."

I stopped walking.

"Nobody.. Nobody even believes me when I deny it! I'm tired of this rumor and I'm trying hard to be distant from you but it's hard! It makes my day feel different from before! I've felt empty for days!"

My voice was strong as I spoke these words all throughout.

I just realized what I said..

Should I have not said that?

"Don't get me wrong! It's just.. It just felt like that!"

I faced her then I looked back once again then I started biting my nail.

"Are you mad about it?"

She asked me with a low tone.

Mad.. I'm mad right now but it's because it's injustice!

I stopped biting my nail.

"If I'm mad, I'm not mad to people I'm about the rumor! Why don't they believe me? I want them to believe in my words!"

"Maybe it's just really hard to believe..."

She went closer a bit then she sighed.

"I think nobody would believe me too."

She sat on the bed.

R-really?.... Why though..

"Why wouldn't they? What did they say about it?"

I looked at her while she was sitting down.

She was only looking on the floor.

"Honestly, I haven't tried arguing yet.."

"W-what? Why?"

"Do you make them want to believe me?"

o__o What is she saying??

I didn't respond.

"Jennie."

She held my hand slowly.

I think my heart just jumped --

Her soft hands.. Touching mine.. Why is it that... I want it to stay like this.

"Jennie. Do you want them to believe me when I deny the rumor?"

She looked at me.

My heart was beating fast while seeing her stare straight into my eyes.

"Do you want them to??"

She made her voice a little bit louder then she stood up, she was still holding my hand.

I was staring on the floor blankly for seconds.

Until I realized and removed her hand from mine then I walked a little further from her.

"All of this is useless."

She went behind me.

Useless??

"You're avoiding me but it makes your day empty and they wouldn't even believe you."

I'm getting hot-tempered already.

"Maybe if we make it a little more longer they would already."

I stated. I stated it without meaning it.

"Okay! Fine! Let's do it! You didn't answer my question earlier too. Then let's start avoiding each other."

Wait.. What the fvck.. Why does it feel like it's my fault again..

She started walking away.

I just let her but..

A few seconds I..

Couldn't endure myself and..

I backhugged her on the waist.

"L-Lisa... I didn't mean that.."

My heart is almost gonna explode because of the thought that I'm hugging her but I still wanted to be with her.

I'm nervous. I'm nervous. I'm nervous.

"You said you wanted to avoid each other."

She removed my hands from her.

"N-no.. It just came out of my mouth but I didn't mean it..."

I held her forearm.

She faced me with her entire body along.

"Jennie.."

I just looked into her eyes while having a sad face.

She was taller than me.

She placed both of her hands on my shoulders then stared at me.

"What was supposed to be your answer to my question earlier?"

My heartbeat....

"My ans--"

"Ah, no wait. I'm not yet ready to hear it."

She removed her hands from my shoulders then walked back and forth.

I just let her be.

What is she waiting for..

Didn't she badly want an answer from me?

Seeing her walk like that makes me nervous at the same time.

"Jennie."

Why is it that every time she calls me my heart beats fast...

"Y-yes...?"

"Don't say something but can I say something?"

Don't say something.. What..

I just agreed.

"Oh.. kay.."

"Jennie."

"Jennie.. I.."

Why is she repeating calling my name!!

"Jennie.."

"Can you go straight to the point??"

"Jennie, I like you."

My heart started beating very fast again.

What the heck.. This isn't what it's supposed to be.. She's supposed to be my mentor.. And I'm..

I haven't responded.

"Okay, just don't say something about it. I told you earlier right."

She sat down on the chair frustrated.

I was in shock but..

"B-but.. You're supposed to be my mentor and my mentor only. I went here for training not for a relationship.."

"I know! This is stupid."

She covered her whole face.

"There are times that you don't do well during training but it doesn't annoy me unlike the others and it feels like I want to train you, all alone. Everyday."

W-what.. Suddenly..

"But.. You have a boyfriend why are you into me?"

"Boyfriend?? Didn't you mention that in my room too? What are you talking about?"

She looked at me.

"The.. One who was in the car and.. The one waiting for you upstairs.."

"What?! Did you mean my brother?"

Her.. What.. Brother --- o__o

"But we.. Saw you hugging.."

"Aren't siblings allowed to hug each other?"

"All this time I didn't know about it.."

It was already an awkward atmosphere.

"I think I should go.."

She said.

"W-wait.. I.. I have something to say too..."

She was nervously waiting.

"I.. I'm feeling crazy around you.. I don't know.. I.. am nervous and.. I find you really beautiful.. And your talents make you more attractive.."

Fvck.

I was saying the words by phrases because I couldn't say it straight.

She just continued looking at me.

[ This chapter aaackk!!! I'm curious of my readers tbh I hope you're all good and doing fine during this pandemic. Also I hope you're enjoying reading my story. Xoxo. Please support my other Jenlisa story too! " Clubbin' " The ideas there are so random there tbh but it's good too I assure you >< I'm thinking of writing a Chaennie fanfic ghad I have to stop!! ]