Twistice (Twi-Stice)

The Game Plan

**Ch 16 The Game Plan**

**Bella’s POV**

            I wrapped my arms around myself and laid down in the fetal position, and started to cry as everybody started yelling. I couldn’t function let alone speak to anybody at that moment. All I could think of is that she’s gone, she’s gone. What did I do to deserve this? I know I can be a little rebellious and stubborn when it comes to certain things but it was never anything bad. This isn’t my fault it’s his. Nobody told him to have an obsession with me. I wasn’t aware that my shield went down until I heard everybody shouting getting louder, but only one stood out, Jasper. “Please Bella I can’t take your emotions along with everybody else.” He pleaded. I simply nodded and stood up.

            I took several deep breaths to center myself until I was sure that my emotions could no longer be detected by jasper. When I seen that he was more relaxed I looked around the room and took in everything. “Will all of you guys just shut the hell up?” I spoke calmly but nobody seems to be paying attention. “I. Said. Enough!” I shouted at everybody and stormed into the kitchen. “What the hell are they arguing about in the first place; it’s not like they are the ones that lost their mother. I should be the one screaming and shouting. My family might have gotten bigger but apparently the saying is right bigger isn’t better.” I mumbled to myself grabbing a bottle of juice out the fridge. I need to escape and just have some time to myself to think. “Bella, honey, are you okay? Do you want to talk about it?” Charlie asked walking into the kitchen. When I turned around to face him he gasped. I would of asked what the problem is but I didn’t care I just don’t have the strength to care about anything. “Look, dad I’m fine, so you don’t have to worry about me I just need to be alone okay. Give me an hour or so and then we all can do something together okay. This is supposed to be a fun carefree day with no problems or concern and that how I plan for it to be.” I told him before I walked out the kitchen and walked down the hallway to the stairs.

            What am I going to do? Why me I just don’t understand why he didn’t just kill me or whatever all them years ago? I don’t know how and I don’t know when but before I kill him I will be getting those answers. I promised myself that I will. Ugh I just don’t know if I can actually survive this. I tried to block out that day the best I could but it just wasn’t going away. Every time I closed my eyes I’m back in the alley. The only difference now is the fact that I can actually feel James presence in the shadows and just don’t understand. If I was going to get through this I was going to need help and I wouldn’t blame them if they didn’t want to help since I was being a total ass to them. With a heavy sigh I pushed of the stair case and made my way back to my family back to the living room. Everything I thought was a good plan to go on now seems completely pointless. When I broke into the living room everybody abruptly stopped talking. My eyes landed on Edward first and I figured it was better to start from there. “Um Edward can I…um talk with you in the kitchen.” I said looking at the floor. “Sure Bella.” He replied. Before her got up I ran into the kitchen. When he walked into the kitchen I blocked it off and sound proofed it.

            “Bella what is going on?” he asked. “I’m sorry Edward. I didn’t mean to be such a bitch to you all the time its just really hard for me to be around people let alone to have boyfriend. What I’m trying to say is being with me isn’t going to be a walk in the park its going to be probably one of the hardest thing you ever did, but I will try my best to change if you are still interested.” I told him while looking at the floor. I didn’t even look up when he crossed the floor to me. “Bella please look at me please.” He whispered, but I just couldn’t. He sighed before he grabbing my chin and lifting it up I quickly adverted my eyes. I was too afraid to see the hate in his eyes. “Bella will you please look at me?” he pleaded. I shot my eyes to his face before quickly avoiding it. He chuckled. “Bella listen to me. There is nothing about you that is easy and I love that about you. You are a fighter. I know this is all new to you hell its new to me to but the way I feel about you isn’t going to change overnight. The only thing I’m worried about is you realizing that you are better off without me in your life and leaving. Regardless of what you choose I will always love you.” He said the last part in a whisper. “I don’t think it is possible for me to leave you even if I wanted because every moment I’m with you the more I’m falling for you and it scares me to death but I just don’t want to fight it anymore.” I sighed. Next thing I know I’m sitting on the counter with Edward lips on mine.