My Sweetest Demon ✓

[MSD-50]

Siguro kung papipiliin ako kung anong gusto ko sa susunod kong buhay, iyon ay ang makilala ulit si Damond. Ang magkaroon muli ng pagkakataon na mas makilala pa siya at higit na mahalin.

"Delivery po for Ashtyn Gertrude Sandford." iniabot sa'kin ng delivery guy ang isang pirasong tulip na kulay pink, at isang sobre.

"Please be reminded to always be happy everytime you see a pink tulip."

Naalala ko ang sinabi niya noon. Hindi ko na kailangan pang magtanong dahil alam ko na kung kanino ito galing.

Agad na bumuhos ang luha ko nang buksan ko ang sobre at makita ang nakasulat dito.

SMILE

Iyon lang ang nabasa ko pero di ko maiwasang umiyak. Sa likod ng card ay mayroong hand written letter. Sulat kamay ito ni Damond.

Hi!

How long has it been? Are you sleeping well, and eating well? I hope you are doing well.

I know by the time you'll be reading this I will no longer be with you. It breaks my heart knowing that I will be leaving you with a broken heart, and I can't do something about it.

Please take good care of yourself for I won't be there to take care of you. Always remember that I love you. Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow. And till we meet again. I will always love you, Gerry.

Ilang buwan na ba ang nakalipas? Tatlo.

Tatlong buwan na mula nang iwan niya kami pero habang tumatagal ay lalo ko siyang namimiss. Kahit ata naiiyak ko na lahat ng luha ko hindi pa rin mawawala yung sakit.

It was really hard for me. Everyday was a struggle trying to pretend that I'm okay in front of other people, but everytime I'm alone in my room I always feel empty. I still look at my phone waiting for a call or even just a text message from you which I know will never happen.

But today, you have no idea how this letter means to me. It made me feel like you were just right here watchin' over me.

"I miss you so much." I hugged the letter close to my heart as I cried myself to sleep.

I can still remember that day, right after his funeral, when I came back to our house and opened the window of my room I saw a pink tulip starting to bloom in the pot he gave me.

"You'll know when it's time." That's what he said when he gave it to me.

Kahit wala na siya ay nakagawa pa rin siya ng paraan para iparamdam sa'kin kung gaano niya ako kamahal. Alam ko na bago siya mamaalam ay pinlano na niya ang lahat ng ito. Bandang huli ay ako pa rin ang nasa isip niya.

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Life must go on. Hindi hihinto sa pag-ikot ang mundo dahil sa pagkawala ng taong mahal mo. You have to keep moving forward. You must keep on fighting.

Alam kong iyon ang gustong mangyari ni Damond. Wala man siya sa tabi ko alam kong hindi niya gugustuhing tumigil sa pag-ikot ang mundo ko dahil lang sa pagkawala niya.

"He wanted me to give you this."

Tinignan ko ang hawak ni Ate Meg at nakagat ko ang labi ko.

"Damond!" Napaluhod ako sa puntod niya, hawak ang sulat at bulaklak na iniabot ni Ate Meg. A pink tulip.

Hi!

It's been a year. It feels weird writing this letter in advance. I don't even know if you'll still be interested in reading this when the time comes.

I will ask Ate to give this to you on my 1st death anniversary. It's even weirder thinking about my own death anniversary. I don't know what am I supposed to write? I just wanted to leave something for you even when I'm gone.

Maybe I'll just tell you a story.

It was my first day as a transfer student in high school when a girl bumped into me. I used to be someone who would kill anyone who would get in my way, but that girl caught my attention. She was wearing the school uniform and her hair was tied into a knot. There was nothing really special about the way she looked, but there was something something strange in her eyes. I even asked the principal to get me into her class.

At first it was just to soothe my curiosity about her, then my heart began beating erratically. Why was I getting nervous everytime she's near? Then I'll just shout at her and act annoyed. Well, I really was annoyed by that strange feeling she caused.

I wasn't really sure how to address that feeling, but I tried to get closer to her and even forced her to be my girlfriend. Then we broke up, she went to the States and would you believe I even followed her like an obssesed stalker? Seriously, what was I thinking back then? Maybe I just love her that much.

Then she came back, and I thought I might as well try to win her back. I brought her to our rest house, but I did not realize that there will be a thunderstorm I had always been afraid of thunder and lightning ever since I could remember. It was so gay that I had to crawl to her bedroom to hide in the corner and my damn headache made it worse.

I thought it was just migraine until I can no longer tolerate the pain. When I finally decided to consult a doctor it was too late. I was diagnosed with high-grade glioma which can not be cured. I felt sorry for myself, but I felt more sorry to those who I would leave behind especially that girl named Gerry.

How am I supposed to tell you that I'm going to die soon when things between us were just starting to get better? I wanted to enjoy every moment with you. I wanted to hold your hand always. I wanted to hug and kiss you everytime I could. I wanted to marry you, have kids, and grand children.

There were lots of things I wanted to do, but I can't. I don't have the energy and my time is running out. If only I could turn back time I would have been nicer to you, I would have done it right. I wouldn't have ignored those headaches and got checked immediately, maybe I would have the chance to survive. I'm sorry, Gerry. I'm so sorry for leaving you. I'm sorry won't be there to wipe your tears.

I want you to know that I am blessed and really thankful for having you. You made the rest of my days so wonderful, Gerry.

Please, I want you to be happy. I will always be watching over you. I love you. Always and forever.

Till we meet again, my love.

- Damond

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I'm getting emotional right now. After 10 years natapos ko rin ito, ai 7 years lang pala. Huhu. I'm so proud of myself. Haha

Maraming salamat sa lahat ng sumuporta sa kwentong ito kahit inamag na ito sa library ninyo. Ilang beses na akong pinanghinaan ng loob dito, ilang beses ko nang binalak na i-discontinue or i-unpublish na lang pero mas pinili kong lumaban. Charot!

It's time to say goodbye to my very first story sa wattpad na akala ko ay kahulihulihan kong matatapos. Naexperience nito yung transition ko from a jeje writer to a less jeje one kaya kung mapapansin ninyo ay paiba-iba ng feels itong kwentong 'to. Aminado naman ako na ang daming flaws nito, pagpasensyahan niyo na. Basta. I'm happy and sad at the same time. Ayun. Share ko lang.

Sana magcomment kayo, I want to hear from you guys!