Secret [TAEKOOK]

Taehyung

[Jungkook]

my heart hurt when he said no. I knew that he would say no but a small very very small part of me thought that maybe just maybe he had changed his mind bout us but when he said no that was gone. it broke me all over again. hope is a very dangerous thing. it is breaking me even more. what shd I do? 

knock knock 

 I opened the door and it was Jimin hyung. "what do u want hyung?" I asked him clearly annoyed by his presence. we weren't like this before but ever since tae and I, he has been a real bitch to me. "I just want to talk," he said keeping his calm. I let him in and he looked around. my room wasn't set yet. it only had my bed and my closet set. "what do u want to talk bout" I asked curiously. "taehyung" tae told him bout last night. "u can't keep hurting him" wait what. hurting him? wht. how. when. "I never meant to hurt him. is he in pain?" Jimin looked at me as if I was dumb? "I meant emotionally. he loves u too much and u r leading him to nowhere. uk u both can't happen as long as one of u are here so u better let him move on" wht he just said hit me like a rock. a huge boulder. he kept his hand on my shoulder trying to calm me down. "u shd move on too" saying that he left me. 

wht he said was absolutely true. I am hurting him. he did say he loves me and I am leading him to nowhere. but the one thing he said was as long as one of us are here we can't date. but I love him. he is worth more than anything in the world. I love him so much. he is my everything. 

Flashback

I hope they are nice. are they all my age. no namjoon hyung is older than us. he is the only one ik here. I took a deep breath and opened the door and I saw two ppl sitting on the couch.  I knew 2 of them were already here. one was namjoon hyung. "jungkook is it?" a voice asked me. "yes" a smile formed on his face. "I am namjoon". "I know exactly who u are sir I am a huge fan" I shook his hand. "ok don't call me sir we are friends" he is so cool. "meet min yoongi hyung"  he was lazily sitting on the couch. I gave him a smile and then Namjoon hyung took me to my dorm room. 

The room was nice. it wasn't rlly big but it was nice. I set up my things and went outside. someone had arrived. when I went outside I was met with a boy who was older than me for sure. he looked at me and gave a sweet smile. I bowed to him and he did the same. I greeted him. " u must be Jungkook. Seokjin" does everyone know bout me. how come I don't know bout them. 

Soon 2 more members arrived. Jimin and Hoseok hyung. they were all older than me. we all met our manager and then we sat down for dinner. I sat down next to Joon hyung. I counted and there were only 6 of us they said there were 7. "hyung I thought there were 7 of us" I asked curiously. "ya the 7th member is still a mystery to us too but he will be coming within a day or 2". now am even more curious as to y they would keep him a secret.

Its been 2 weeks and we still haven't seen the 7th member we don't even know his name. Today we are doing a live cam. these past 2 weeks were nice. we all got to know each other more. Namjoon hyung is rlly cool. Yoongi hyung is a little rude Hoseok hyung is always fun and cheerful. Jin hyung is the oldest and sometimes he is very done with us and Jimin hyung is sweet. 

The live cam was nice and it was crazy. we went wild. I am kinda exhausted after the whole thing. I shd get some sleep. 

The next day 

I came out to see an unfamiliar face. he was taller than me and he was wearing a red leather jacket and he looked like a badass. is he the 7th member. " he is the 7th member" Joon hyung said softly. I didn't talk to him but I could tell he wasn't a person who was nice to ppl or even talked to ppl because they had dignity. 

we all went for dinner and he wasn't there. "he looks like a badass" Jimin hyung said. "he seems rude" Yoongi hyung said. they were all discussing bout him when he entered and he took a place next to Jimin hyung and Yoongi hyung. 

"so Taehyung how was the flight," Joon hyung said breaking the awkward silence. " it was nice" his voice was deep suiting his character. then we all went back to eating. "why were u delayed?" Jimin hyung asked but ryt when he was about to answer our manager walked in. "everyone meet the last member of bangtan sonyeondan Kim taehyung" so that's his name. 

I went to the living room and I bumped into someone. I fell down. "so sorry" he apologized. I looked up and it was taehyung. he offered me his hand and I took it. I stood up and he gave me a sweet smile. "Kim taehyung," he said in a sweet voice. "Jeon Jungkook" he shook my hand. he didn't seem like a badass anymore he looked like a cute teenage boy. 

1 year later

Taehyung is not even close to wht everyone was imagining. he was an absolute angel. he helped me out during our hard times. he was always nice and turned out that when we first saw him he wasn't supposed to introduce himself that's y he didn't talk to anyone and that the leather jacket was a gift from his mom so he wore it cause he missed her. all the other members changed their minds bout him too. Jimin and Taehyung hyung are the same age so they are sharing a room and I get my own. 

But there is something happening to me. it's like every time I look at him my heart beats faster and I feel so happy and the days I don't see him I feel sad and idk wht this feeling is. do I like him? I keep thinking bout him. he is the only person who has seen me in my worse state. but wht if he isn't I mean wht if he is straight. who am I kidding even if he was into guys he wouldn't feel anything towards me.

End of Flashback

I love him too much to leave him. I want to be with him. ik wht I have to do. 

I am gonna leave the band.

hey guys. ik that this chapter is long and am sry if it bored u. but thanks for reading. :)