Secret [TAEKOOK]

Love

[Taehyung]

6 months later

finally, we are home. the tour was amazing and the hotels we stayed were to by there is no place like home. on the tour Jungkook and I were cool and we were ok with each other. I am glad we are ok cause I thought he would hate me forever. 

I got changed and I went to bed. I am exhausted. as soon as my head hit the pillow I went into a deep slumber.

2 days later

we all moved to our new dorm. we all have our own rooms and its pretty big. I like it. today is yoongi hyungs birthday so we are going out to celebrate. 

later

knock knock

who could it be? its past midnight. I got up and opened the door and as soon as I did a pair of warm lips were on mine. it didn't take long to know it was Jungkook. he closed the door behind him and in no time he was pulling off my clothes. his hands roamed around my whole body. feeling every inch. his every touch bought pleasure to my body. my body was longing for this. his tongue was fighting for dominance. he wanted to be in control and I let him. 

The night was filled with pleasure with a hint of lust. at the end, we were panting uncontrollably but we didn't care. his eyes were filled with love and desire and my heart was pounding in my chest. he is making me lose my sanity. 

"I fucking love u tae," he said while caressing my cheek with his thumb. he put his both hands on either side of me and he was now on top of me and I wasn't able to look into his eyes because ik. ik that I will lose every bit of strength I have left if I look him in the eye. but I still did and those words came out of my mouth. "I love you to kookie". his lips instantly turned into a beautiful smile. he pecked my lips and went to sleep. 

The next morning.

when I woke up he was gone. was I dreaming? I felt so disappointed at first but then I saw my clothes on the floor and I realized that it wasn't and happiness filled me. I slowly got up and started walking towards the washroom. but I fell back. I gathered my energy and got up again but this time I was able to stand. I took some time but I started walking and it hurt but it was completely worth last night. 

I decided to stay in my room saying that I was sick because I rlly didn't want to explain the limping. there was a knock on the door. "it's open" I yelled hoping they would hear it and I wouldn't have to get out of my comfy position. the door opened and I was happy I didn't have to get up from my place. 

"do u regret it?" a soft voice asked me and my heart skipped a beat. I didn't realize that it was kookie. "is that y ur ignoring me" he said with sadness clear in his voice. I sat up straight and he looked at me with those sad eyes. "the only reason am in bed today is because I am too tired to lie to everyone bout y I am limping" a shy smile formed on his lips. he was so different yesterday. he was so confident but today he is back to his normal shy self. 

"u have no idea how much I wanted to do that for the past 8 months". My cheeks turned brighter than a tomato. "be with me". I wanted to say yes. I wanted to say yes so bad but I remembered what it was like for us when we were together hiding from everyone always being so alert. Being with him was amazing but I didn't want it to be that way. I want the world to know that I am his and he is mine and I want to hold his hand not worrying bout ppl finding out bout us and I want to kiss him in front of everyone so everyone knows that he is with me. But it's impossible with him. it can never be that way. "no" I said trying to stop the tears that were bout to flow. "uk the reason y we broke up and it won't change now" I said still trying not to cry. "ok" he said with so much sadness. my heart hurt to do this to him. I love him I really do but sometimes I have to be selfish I have to do what's best for me. and him.