Secret [TAEKOOK]

Mistake

[Taehyung]

I don't want to ruin his life. I have already done enough. his expression was heartbreaking but I broke his heart enough and this will be the last time. "why?" he asked me still holding the heartbreaking expression. "because I have done enough damage" I said truthfully. "that's what am saying we can forget what we did wrong and start again. please tae" he pleaded. I wanted to say yes but no I won't do it again and this time I am not selfish. I care for him and I have hurt him enough. "tell me 3 reasons y I shd believe we are not good together" 

"one we break each other, two I am ashamed of wht I have done and three we can't be together in front of the company," I said clearly stating out the 3 reasons. "so that means only u get to decide if u want to be with me or not. don't I get to do the same?". "u do and ik u don't want to be with me" I said holding back my tears. "ok let's take a vote". srsly its a tie. "it's going be a tie" I told him. "not if everyone votes." he got up and pulled me out. 

"Jin hyung." kookie yelled Jin hyung stopped and turned around. "what is it kook?" he asked. "do u think we shd stay together or not," he said like it was just a simple question. "well when ur not together he acts like an asshole" my cheeks turned red in embarrassment. "ya sry bout that I was drunk half the time but ik it doesn't make up for it so I will go fishing with u," I said hoping he would forgive me. "ok." he said and a smile formed on my face. "ahem. my question" kook said annoyed his hand was still around my wrist. "o that ya u guys r vry cute." "two to one," he said happily.

"ok hobi hyung we have a question," he said excitedly. "ok". "do u think tae and I shd be together" how is he still excited. "taekook forever" hobi hyung replied. "u made a ship name," I asked him. "no the army made it" what they know? "they know bout us." I asked panicking. "no but they ship u guys. ask ur siblings." 

At the end, we ended up having 5:1. yoongi hyung was sleeping so we didn't bother him. "hey guys we are going out u both are punished to stay here," Jin hyung said. "y?". "because u both haven't done a single chore since yesterday always crying and screaming," he said"fair enough," I said and they all left. 

"so" kook said like he had something in mind. "what r u thinking?" I asked him cause ik for sure he has something planned. he started walking closer. "so r we together again," he said slowly in my year sending shivers down my body. he placed soft kisses on my neck trailing down. "I want u" he whispered in my ears. I bit my lip. I couldn't help but feel intimidated by him. "don't u want me" he asked me. ugh please stop taehyung. don't do it ur gonna break him. and he doesn't understand that. he kept kissing me. I flipped us over. now he was against the wall. and a sudden memory flashed. I moved back immediately. I was choking kook. he was against the wall and and my hand was on his throat squeezing it. I caught my head and sat down and the memory flashed again. and this time jungkook was on the floor and he was gasping for air. 

"what's  wrong?" Jungkook asked me with concern on his voice. "stay away," I said trying not to hurt him. "tae please" he said even more worried. "I hurt u". "no u didn't am fine look," he said trying to convince me. "that night when I was drunk I hurt u and uk that I did. y didn't u tell me" I asked him. "because I knew u would act like this." sadness was visible in his eyes. "wtf is wrong with me," I said. the memories replayed in my mind again and again. "am so sry" I said again and again.