This Can't Be Real

Chapter 10

I can no longer feel the heat coming from the cup I'm holding in my hands while looking out the living room window. I made my tea well over an hour ago but I've hardly touched it. I think I've only managed to take one sip from it if I'm lucky. In all honesty, I'm not in the mood to drink tea.

I'm not in the mood to drink anything or even do anything.

My mind is still replaying everything that's happened over the past twenty-four hours. It was wrong to fight with Joe but the route our conversation was going, it was bound to happen. We were going to argue no matter what. It just so happens it was then, and now I have no idea what's going to happen next.

"Okay, shoes and jacket on. We're going out." Jess's loud voice echoes to me in the silence.

I shake my head a few times before turning my attention to her. She comes to a stop in front of me. "What are you talking about?"

"We are going to the doctors for your check-up," she says, pulling my cup from my hands and handing me my shoes and jacket. "We don't have all day, Leigh. Chop chop."

I take my jacket and shoes from her and stare at them. I don't recall having a doctors appointment to go to. There's nothing written on the calendar that's on the wall in the kitchen about a doctors appointment for me. In fact, there's nothing written at all on the calendar for this month in regards to me.

"Jess, why-" I start.

On a small groan and a shake of the head, Jess turns on the spot and leaves the room to put my cup in the kitchen before returning moments later. "After the accident, it was advised that you should see your doctor to get a check-up regarding your unborn baby."

"Which I don't-"

"Which Joe told me was today and said that I should take you rather than him," she points out with her voice rising by the word. She cocks her head to the side on smirk. "I've got it all sorted."

"Jess," I sigh.

"Leigh," she starts. She places a hand on my forearm and the other over my shoulders before guiding me out of the living room. "I have made an agreement with Joe that means I now the one who is in charge of you."

I frown. "Weren't you meant to be doing that anyway? Weren't you meant to be helping me get my memories back?"

"Yes and yes. Only this time, I have full control over what happens in regards to things being your next of kin."

"Like?"

She lets me go and I sit on the stairs to put my shoes on.

"Like the doctors appointments you will be attending."

I nod while slipping my jacket on, and get to my feet.

I don't know what I'm expecting to happen when I get to the doctors. I don't know if I want the doctor to tell me that I am in fact pregnant, or that I've miscarried. A part of me is praying and hoping that I'm not pregnant so I can stop juggling the thought of having a human growing inside of me. Then again, at the same time, a part of me, somewhere deep down inside of me, I'm hoping I am as this may be the thing that brings Joe and I back together.

"Come on, Leigh. We'll be late with the speed you're going at."

I roll my eyes as I follow Jess out the house. This isn’t going to be over any time soon.

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The doctors waiting room isn't what I was expecting. I was expecting the walls to be plain, floor to be carpet, seats slightly worn and clearly sat on, the receptionist to seem not interested in anyone who comes in with an appointment, and for Jess to leave me alone to do this all myself.