- if you can't move on from your first love, this story is for you. :)
𝘚𝘺𝘯𝘰𝘱𝘴𝘪𝘴 : Seoul Lights. A majestic yet so terrifying place where all the powerful people can only survive. Dae Young tries to fit in with the people with the help she ge...
"So...You're really going to leave me?" Chan asked, his voice starting to shake, his breathing becoming unstable.
This hurts so bad. The thought of us having to let go of each other, not because he cheated, not because I was unloving, but because it was all too soon. It had to be done. Both of us weren't ready. We rushed everything and it came to this.
Both of us were hurting each other without the intention to.
"I have to..." I tried my best to give him a reassuring smile, but it ended up in tears.
"I can't do this anymore." I broke down, my tears already bursting out, my heart already crumbling.
I'm tired. I want to rest and take a leave. I'm not doing this to hurt him. I'm doing this for him. Both of us aren't ready for any of this when both of us are still slaves of our past. Slaves of our first loves. If only I had any other choice, I would've done it already.
I know it's not strong of me to leave, but if I continue this relationship, it might break my mind and heart apart.
"I have to do this." I cried.
"Is leaving the only option for us? For you? Can't we just...Can't we..." He couldn't finish his words and fell down. "Damn it, Dae Young...You're breaking my heart." He cried.
I couldn't bear to see him like this.
"I'm not strong enough for this..." I slowly stepped towards him.
I'm doing this for him. I'm going to free myself from my past. I'm going to move on from my past. It was what I should've done in the beginning. Move on.
"Thank you for sharing this with me." I looked out to the horizon. It was the sea of lights.
Seoul Lights.
"I'm thankful." I crouched down to pat his hair. I kissed the top of his head. My heart is hurting so bad. While kissing his hair, I thought of all the things Chan and I have done together. This might be the last time I would see him. If our feelings change over time, it's all over.
It's a gamble for me and him. We separate for the sake of ourselves. For us to grow as people, without each other. We'll take the time to deal with other things, because clearly we can't handle them when we can't even handle ourselves. There's a risk of him losing feelings, and there's a risk of me losing feelings too.
I'm leaving so that I can grow.
Because sometimes, people need to grow alone.
I grew with Chan for a year. I dated him when I was twenty one. I'm twenty two and a lot has changed.
I grew with him for a year, but sadly, it doesn't mean I get to grow with him the rest of my life.
"Until tomorrow, Chan."
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𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘦 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘦𝘥 :
- This story will cover some topics that some people would be uncomfortable with. read at your own risk.
- im a young writer with little to no knowledge about writing. so of course, plot holes might be evident, but im trying to make the story as enjoyable as possible.
- this story has no smut. Some scenes may be tensional and some characters may say dirty jokes but it stays to that limit only.
- hateful/bigotry/rude comments will be deleted and muted.
- always remember that I wrote these characters. Hate thrown to them would be hate thrown to me.
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This is a work of fiction. Unless otherwise indicated, all the names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents in this book are either the product of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
