Run To You

Chapter 8 - The Choice (Josh)

I went to sleep. I needed sleep so that I could think straight. Then maybe I could make a decision.
I felt like I hadn't slept in 5 years, but I just couldn't seem to fall asleep. So many thoughts were running through my mind. I put my headphones in and shut my eyes, eventually falling asleep.

I woke up in the morning to a banging at the door, my eyes were swollen, and I looked terrible, but I didn't care about my looks right now.

I answered the door and saw Josh standing there, his eyes looked swollen too, as soon as I opened the door he grabbed me and pulled me close, kissing my face, tears running down his cheeks "I need you" he said, sounding exhausted. "I can't lose you, I can't!" He said, raising his voice, I hugged him tightly.

"Do you want to come upstairs?" I asked. He nodded, I grabbed his hand and guided him upstairs with me, we sat on my bed in silence for a bit.
"I know you're not happy here." He said, I looked up, trying to hold back my tears, he grabbed my arms, "please come back to Australia with me. You can live with us until you start making enough money to rent the apartment" then his eyes widened, he quickly pulled away from me, looking worried. I knew exactly what had happened. He pulled up my sleeves, revealing my blood stained wrists, he immediately burst into tears "why baby?" He said sadly, kissing my wrists.

I started crying, I couldn't help it, seeing him so upset killed me. "You're right" I said "I hate it here. I don't have any friends. It rains every single day. It's cold and depressing. But I really like Danny, and my parents are here. I'm only 16, I'm not so sure I can handle moving out at such a young age. I need a few days to think" I told him.

"I understand" he said, as he took of his shirt, I tilted my head in confusion, he then lifted my shirt off and pinned me down on the bed, kissing me. "I need to remind you how it feels to be with me" he said, and continued undressing.