Run To You

Chapter 13 - Fading Memories

The more I hung out with Danny, the more I realised we were meant to be together, and that I'd made the right choice
There were even moments I forgot about Josh, I felt like I was falling in love for the first time.

There was a knock at the door, I ran downstairs and opened it, Danny was standing there, smiling at me, I jumped into his arms, kissing him. He came inside, pushing me up against a wall and kissing me back, we went upstairs, we lay on my bed and talked for hours, we could talk about anything and everything.

Before leaving that night, Danny mentioned Josh.
"I'm so glad you picked me over Josh" Danny said, kissing me on the cheek, I looked at him with a confused expression, "who's Josh?" Then I realised what I'd just said, I covered my mouth with my hand, Danny smiled, then hugged me and went home.
I went upstairs and lay in my bed, in the dark, staring up at the ceiling, for hours.

How could I have just forgotten Josh like that? He was such a big part of my life, I loved him! It's like Danny has brainwashed me! I flipped up my laptop screen and typed Josh's name into my Facebook search bar, I wasn't able to see much, since I wasn't friends with him, but I could still see his photos. He had a new profile picture, it used to be a picture of us at the beach, kissing, now it was a picture of him hanging out with a group of girls in bikinis that I've never seen before, it broke my heart.
If my parents had just stayed in Australia, none of this would've ever happened. It's all their fault.
And to make matters worse, school starts again in a few days. Great.

I woke up to the sounds of my ringtone, it was Danny. I really wasn't in the mood to talk to him, I declined the call and shut my eyes, I then heard a knock at the door, my mum let herself in, and sat on my bed. "Josh's mum called me" she said, I shot up, "what?! why?" I asked, "Josh isn't doing very well without you, he's... he's in the hospital, he took too many pills." She told me.
"He tried to kill himself?" I asked, raising my voice, mum shook her head "no, he was at a party, he took some pills someone gave him, he's trying to forget you. But obviously, he can't." She told me, hugging me. "Why are you telling me this?" I said, as a tear rolled down my cheek, "you were going to find out eventually, I just thought it'd be better from me" she replied, she kissed me on the head and left the room. I screamed into my pillow.

After a few hours, I received a text message, I rolled over and unlocked my phone, it was Danny, again. Asking where I was. I couldn't see Danny today, I just couldn't. I felt so guilty. Josh could've died and it would've been all my fault. I locked my phone and placed it on my bedside table, not replying to Danny's text.
As soon as he'd seen that I'd seen his text, he texted me again, I checked my messages again, "I'm coming over" he said.
"No, no, no" I yelled into my pillow, I quickly grabbed my phone and dialled Danny's number, he answered straight away "don't come over." I said, and hung up, not even waiting for his reply.
Honestly, I just wanted to be in Danny's arms, but it wasn't right, not after what happened to Josh.
I just had to hope that Danny would forgive me.

I heard a knock at my door. Oh god, what bad news does my mum have this time? I thought to myself, "come in" I said, and to my surprise, Danny entered. I covered my face with my blankets, "I told you not to come"
He sat beside me on the bed, "I couldn't leave you alone like this" he told me, as he lay down next to me, wrapping his arms around me.
"What's wrong?" He asked, I couldn't speak, I tried, but I just started crying instead, he kissed my neck and stroked my hair, "it's okay, you can tell me later" he said, hugging me even tighter.

I didn't want to admit it to myself, but I was glad Danny was here.