traitor

009 | bloom

[sora pov]

a few days had past and i would occasionally have lunch with the guys. i got to class and sujin sat next to me.

"hey!" she said excitedly.

"hi" giving a warm smile.

"let's hang out sometime! we only see each other in class." she said.

i nodded my head, we've been close for a little now and she's really nice to me. "sure! im not doing anything tonight, do you wanna come over?" i asked.

"of course! text me your address and i'll come over later tonight." she said.

she grabbed my hand and shook it, she was so excited - i was happy she was.

after class i planned on walking back to the dorm from school. i stopped in the library to print out my paper for tomorrow's class.

as i waited, someone tapped me on the shoulder. i turned around and haruto gave me his cheeky smile. "hey" i waved. "what are you doing here" i asked.

"well i had detention but i saw you so i followed you here" he said.

"wow the haruto in detention? for what?" i said playfully.

he ignored my question, "are you heading back to the dorm after?" he said.

i nodded, "some of the guys are coming over later so let me walk with you." he said shoving me. i almost fell over but haruto grabbed my wrist before falling over.

he laughed at me, i frowned and hit him. "hey watch out for my face! how am i going to get the girls" he said laughing harder. i widened my eyes and laughed hitting him a few more times aiming for his face.

"shhh!" we hear a liberian shush us. we turned around to bow at her and quietly giggled.

we left the school and headed back the dorm. i opened the door and shut it after he walked in.

"my friend is gonna be here soon, we are hanging out later, and the guys should be back soon too." i said throwing my school bag on one of the kitchen chairs.

"what friend" as he sat next to one of the chairs.

"why are you going to hit on her" i said teasing him.

he chuckled, "why would i do that? i bet she's not as pretty as you" he cut himself off, i looked up at him and he was stilled.

he started randomly looking around the kitchen. i chuckled, "well i'll still take the compliment if it still stands" i rolled my eyes.

we met eyes, locking for what seemed like years of my life - until i realized what was happening and looked away.

"uhm- do you want to order some food?" shuffling around the kitchen.

he picked up his phone, "yea i'll go order" he said quickly.

it was getting awkward. i tried distracting myself in the kitchen so we could forget the moment we just had.

thankfully hyunsuk opened the door, "HEY CHINGUS" he yelled. i texted yoshi earlier that we walked back together so he knew haruto was here.

jihoon, yoshi, and junkyu walked in and i waved at them.

they brought home some drinks for us, jihoon gave me one as i grabbed my school bag from the chair.

i excused myself upstairs and ran to my room. i jumped on my bed and laid down on the bed and thought about what happened with jaehyuk and a few days ago with the waterbottle again since it has horrified me ever since. i screamed into my pillow thinking about the eye contact we made when yoshi introduced me to him.

it then reminded me of what happened earlier with haruto. i covered my face with my hands, i could feel the heat on my face.

i must be joking.. this needs to stop. i brushed it off and grabbed some clothes and took a quick shower before sujin came.

i got out to check my phone, i got a text from sujin that she was outside. i ran out and opened the door.

she smiled and hugged me, "hey! i brought food" grinning lifting the bags in her hands.

i giggle and let her in, the boys were in the living room so i introduced sujin on the way in. "this is sujin, shes in my language class" she bowed and didn't take their eyes off them. they bowed back at her greeting her nicely.

i thought it was funny that she acted that way since all the girls at school were like this. i nudged her to go the room since they started talking to her about school, we both excused ourselves and went into my room.

we talked about our past stuff basically, i told her about my move to the states and how my parents passed when yoshi and i were young.

i didn't bother telling her the other stuff because i was scared how she would see me as.

sujin just told me her funny stories of the past guys she used to talk to. some were funny but some were honestly horrible, apparently some guy begged her to be his gf after a week of meeting him... i mean he seemed sweet....

we just laughed about it though, "soo are you close to any of the guys?" taking a bite of her ramen. "mm we are all getting closer, they are kind to me and help around. they treat me like a younger sister" i said.

she nodded. "do you know if they are talking to anyone at our school?" her mouth curved into a smile. i shook my head, she continued to ask questions about them and the entertainment lifestyle.

"i'm going to go get some water, do you want anything?" i asked heading out the door. "cola?" turning her head. i walked out and into the kitchen to get our beverages. i came back in and handed her cola. "thanks" she said.

"mhm" i said nodding. she looked around my room and pointed at the floating shelf above my desk. "what are those journals for?" she asked eating her chips.

the journals on the shelf had rims that were clean white which was pretty aesthetically pleasing to look at. there was probably about 5 just on the shelf.

most people ask about it and would ask what it was for or say it looked pretty on the shelf. "it's kinda like a log, maybe like a diary." i said playing with my jjajangmyeon. "what for?" she asked.

i hesitated, "i used to get bullied because they would judge me and compare me to my brother and how he was always more successful." i continued. "i would be called so many things and i lost all my self worth and motivation to do anything. it just lets me open up about stuff, but instead to myself"

"oh sora i'm sorry." comforting me. i shook my head, "it's nothing. i was going to tell you anyways since this was the majority of how i lived my life" i laughed.

"i'm glad you told me, you didn't deserve any of that." she said. "no it's fine really" i sighed. "sorry i'll go wash up really quick i'll be back" i said getting up.

she nodded. i came out and saw sujin shuffling in the bag of food, she looked back and checked her phone. "i think i'm going to head home now, it's getting late" she said. "oh yea no problem thanks again" i smiled.

i walked her to the door, she said bye to the guys and hugged me. "thanks for inviting me, it was fun" she said waving.

i closed the door and sighed. "tiring day" i mumbled  walking back to my room.