traitor

043 | turn over

[haruto pov]

*night after the accident*

the beeping of the monitor woke me up from my sleep. my eyes wandered adjusting to the new place.

i looked over and saw jeongwoo sitting next to me on his phone.

"jeongwoo?"

his eyes immediately looked up at mine, "you're awake," he stood up.

his eyes looked weary, "you're okay," he sighed in relief. right then the door creaked open and yoshi walked in.

i sat up, "hyung i—" before a pain jabbed me in the stomach.

"haruto you should rest" he said with a sad smile.

"i'm sorry hyung, this is my fault. i swear i never wanted sora to get hurt. it shouldve been me, i broke up with her and—" i choked up as i tried to hold back my tears

jeongwoos head jolted up, "y-you broke up with sora?"

i lifted my head up, "she didn't tell you yet?" i looked at both of them.

yoshi closed his eyes, "she hasn't woken up,"

i froze, my hands started to shake, i felt my heart sink down to my stomach. i know they could see my panicked eyes.

everyone is suffering because of me and mother. the choices i had to make are affecting others around me when i thought this was the only way to protect them.

this wasn't supposed to happen. this wasn't the right way.

"haruto, everything will be okay. it's not your fault," yoshis voice comforted me. he knew exactly how i felt. he always did.

stream of tears ran down my face. 'im sorry', the two words that i needed to say to him most couldn't even come out of my mouth.

he reached over and embraced me in his arms, "everything will be alright" his voice lowered.

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[sora pov]

after a week i woke up, i was discharged from the hospital. all the members only visited me once a day due to practice and school but i was still grateful they even took the time to come by.

they all came at different times together but yoshi usually came at night to spend more time with me. sujin also came by once and brought me miso soup she had cooked. she said she didn't have that much time to come by because she had piano lessons after school.

they also never really told me what happened at the meeting doyoung left to. they didn't speak of it and when i asked jeongwoo he would shove food into my mouth or ignore me.

i didn't have a good feeling about it since jeongwoo told me everything. i mean everything. he never stops talking. so i actually was worried for the first time that he didn't tell me what was happening.

after the discharge i was given crutches to use and a ankle brace. my arm was still injured but the members helped me back to carry my things.

"ah finally, home" i struggled to the couch setting the crutches next to me.

"don't get too comfortable, you still have to go back to school in a few days" jihoon said passing by with my bag of medicine.

i cried out, "i get hit by a car and you already make me go back to school? do you guys have any sympathy for me!"

"i liked sora better when she was at the hospital." jeongwoo covered his ears carrying my stuff to my room.

i forgot about having to go back to that evil place. i bet word has gotten around already about the incident and  the break up.

...

i came back to school limping awhile struggling to use the stupid crutches. i stayed in bed most the time when i was home so i never got used to using them.

i walked back into school receiving judgmental stares. but they didn't have the guts to say it to my face. i'm guessing they've heard. i ignored them and just went to my classes.

in a case like this i would have wanted to run. hide. anything, to get away. but at this point i've learned so much. i needed to stop caring about what others think of me.

i talked to my teachers and they were kind enough to give me extensions for assignments and school work due to the accident.

the lunch bell finally rung. instead of eating in the cafeteria or with the guys, i wanted to go to the library and eat alone. i limped to my locker to drop off my book and bag so i wouldn't have to carry the extra weight.

while taking my route to the library, i was stopped by someone holding a bag in my face. i turned around and sunghoon leaned to me and held up a bag of food.

"ah 'sunghoons #1 fan'! that's not the reaction i wanted" he rolled his eyes.

"what are you doing here" i said looking around.

"doyoung told me you haven't been able to get around" he said in a annoyed tone "and haven't been practicing walking with that crippled feet of yours" he looked down at my feet.

i noticed some girls walking by, "isn't that park sunghoon trainee from big hit?" they whispered.

i started to get nervous. everyone already hates me, if they see me with him things would definitely get misunderstood.

he still looked at me waiting for me give him an answer on the food he had brought.

"sunghoon you need to go" i said pushing him away.

"huh? why? hey. i came all the way here so you would eat, what are you—" he turned his head as i pushed him from behind.

"ah i'll text you later just go!" i whispered.

he stopped and turned around, "fine here" he said. he grabbed my hand and gave me the bag.

"take this at least. i already ate and it's a waste if you don't take it." he said waving his hand up as he walked away.

i sighed watching him leave the building. i looked in the bag and there was milk, a cheese corn dog, and strawberry cream filled bread.

sujin came up behind me and put her arms around my shoulder, "hey!" she said cheerfully.

i smiled, "hey sujin"

"how are you? are you feeling better?"

"adapting..." i said peeking down at my leg.

she laughed, "so park sunghoon? already someone new after haruto-kun?" she tilted her head.

i guess she found out too. i shook my head, "no, sunghoon only annoys me. he seems to be making the pain worst i think" i glared at the bag.

"he's not so bad, he's tall, figure skates, big hit trainee, handsome..." she eyed me.

i nudged her, "you can have him" i teased.

"mmm maybe one day" she laughed.

we sat outside the school and talked, "so you kissed sunghoon?"

i cringed, "no, he was drunk. and he thought i was someone else. i liked haruto during that time but don't tell anyone! it would be bad if this got out" i said taking a sip of my milk.

"does he remember?" she asked taking a bite of her tteokbokki.

"i don't think so. but it's better that way, it would be weird if he found out since we're friends now."

"wow, you really get all the guys" she smirked.

"gross, you're going to make me throw up." i shook my head at her.

"whatever, whatever. but i told you so!" she giggled.

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hello everyone! i'm not sure if anyone still remembers this book kiki,,, but here i am! i'm back from school so please look forward to more chapters