traitor

027 | you and i

[jaehyuk pov]

i grabbed her and pulled her into a room shutting the door behind me. she looked so fragile, her face was red and eyes hung low.

she looked up at me, i could tell by her eyes that she felt sorry. but for what? my heart aches seeing that she was feeling this way and i didn't know how to help or what had happened.

i held her face up with both my hands, her eyes stuck to the ground but when her eyes looked up, tears fell down her face. her warm tears ran down my hand. i gently wiped the tears off and smiled at her. "it's okay sora" i sighed.

but she was able to say one word,"haruto.." she trembled looking down again. from there, the conversation i had overheard asahi and haruto talking about sora in the morning all made sense now.

"look sora's a pretty girl and a good person so i don't blame you if you do, but you gotta tell yoshi hyung before anything"

but i didn't understand why she was crying. i hear a voice call her name faintly from outside the door.

she turned her head towards the door, i quickly pulled her close and covered her ears. it was obvious something happened between with her and haruto, i didn't want her to feel more helpless than she already was and ask her again.

i didn't think of anyone else, i could only feel the echoing bass bounce from the walls. the only person i was thinking of, was her.

we were in the room for a while, i looked down at her and she had fallen asleep on my shoulder. i peaked out the door and looked for a way to leave, everyone was outside gathered in the backyard.

i picked her up behind my back and had her arms drooped around my shoulder. i left doyoungs house and walked back to the dorm, it was probably about 30 minutes of a walk considering i was carrying sora and i would experience scoliosis soon.

i arrived back to the dorm and laid her down on my bed and looked at her, jeez she didn't even wake up the whole way home. i put the blanket over her and sat down to rest.

i got a text from jihoon hyung

jihoonie hyung
did you go home? the boys are sleeping over tonight, they're too tired to come back. hope you're okay at the dorm

i turned off my phone and looked at her, she looked so calm. i reached for asahi's pillow and blanket on the top bunk and set it on the ground.

i laid down and sighed, "when will i learn to be happy" i mumbled. i looked over at her again, her eyes closed, a tear fell down her cheek.

she's already has feelings for haruto, i mean i figured she did. who wouldn't, i knew tons of people at school did, not including the fans he already has. he's my dongsaeng and recently i can tell haruto has been more open with us since she was with us.

but i didn't understand why sora was crying, i wanted to make her feel better. i never had feelings for someone like that before. i want her to be happy and see the smile she always wears.

i wanted to be the one to put that smile on her.

[sora pov]

i woke up from a pounding headache, i felt like i just died 3 times and resurrected. i was too tired to open my eyes and expose the bright sun in my face. with my eyes still closed, i sat up and hit my head on the something.

"ow!" i mumbled rubbing my head. i heard blankets shuffling, i opened my eyes and turned over and saw jaehyuk. am i seeing this correctly? i couldn't tell since my eyes could barely open and i could feel the puffiness under them.

i was startled and grabbed the blanket moving back from where i was sitting. i hit my head again on the bunk and made a loud noise, i rubbed my head again.

god how do they sleep like this?! my head was going to form a bruise by the end of today.

i see jaehyuk wake up, "you're awake?" he said sitting up. he rubbed his eye and looked up at me.

i think he realized how confused i was so he got up. he walked out of the door and came back with water. "drink some water" he said.

i drank the whole cup of water and realized i had probably cried out all the water out of my body last night. i set the cup in my lap as he sat down on the edge of the bed, "do you remember what happened yesterday?" he asked me.

i looked up at him and looked away, i didn't reply. i did remember, for a second i did forget. "i saw haruto kissing a girl, i don't even understand why i am feeling this way. i don't even know if i like him and i'm this upset about it. i know what you're thinking, i am selfish" i cursed at myself.

jaehyuk put his hand on my shoulder, "i've know haruto for awhile, he's not like that i promise, it's probably just a misunderstanding." he comforted me.

i wanted to believe him but my own eyes saw it, i didn't know what else it could've it been. "sora." jaehyuk said.

my eyes moved up and met his, "if you feel this way towards him, you like him" he said.

my heart dropped

because i knew he was right.