Grounder | An Anya Love Story

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Recap 

"Guards!" She yelled, to men quickly came running up to us. "Take Maria back to Polis she will be staying it the cells for the time being." The men hesitated to come up to me, but my eyes never left Lexas who barked at them to do it now. She came up to me one my hands were ties behind my back. "I am doing this for your own good." I watched her hand raise and everything went dark when it came in contact with my face. 

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Maria 

When I came to I was chained to the wall, there was a slight pain in my nose and near my eye. Looking around I saw two guards stationed at the gate that was separating us. I knew where I was, I know the only way out is to apologize to Lexa, but I can't seem to bring myself to do that. I need to leave and be away from them, if that means I stay locked in this cage until Lexa thinks that I learned my lesson than so be it. 

I watched the sun moved throughout the day, they brought me food but I never moved from my spot against the wall. I feel like I can't move. I just want to see Raven but I know now she will never talk to me. Why would she I'm a murderer. I left her when she needed me the most I left her. And Finn, oh god Finn I left him so long ago. We had a second chance and I ruined it. I should've spent my time on the ground with him and then when Raven came down we should've been together but instead I've been living my own life away from the both of them.  My own life with Anya, and Lexa. 

Anya. She was beautiful and fierce, she doesn't need me. I'm just a play thing she likes to lug around for some reason. I should be dead. 

Right I should be dead. Anya should've killed me on the forest chance she got. Lexa should've killed me the moment I said I needed to speak to the commander. I should've fought with my people against them, then maybe I could've saved someone while they were in the mountain. 

I didn't even realize I was crying until Anya wiped the tears off my face. She moved my hair away from my face and looked at me. All I could do was stare at her. neither of us said anything we just stared at each other. Her brown hair perfectly held perfectly out of her face, her eyes weren't as dark. She took off the war paint. Her eyes are beautiful brown eyes stared back at me as I traced her face within my brain trying to engrave every curve and dip that it had to offer. 

We sat in silence for maybe an hour before she stood up, she kissed the top of my head and left. No words were spoken between us. Was there really any need for words? I wanted to leave her. I remember break ups being a lot easier on the Ark. But Anya, she wouldn't let me leave would she. I am in this forever. 

The thought of us sitting in the woods with little kids running around us learning how to fight filled my mind. The kids in Polis who I promised to help all there playing and having fun. 

That was what I wanted. I want a happy peaceful life where our children can run around and play and be children like I wasn't able to. I can't have that with Anya, not here anyways. We would have to leave and I don't think Anya would leave Lexas side. Let alone if Lexa would let me leave hers.

My eyes scanned around the cell before landing on a rock the was just next to my foot. Slowly grabbing it and looking at, the edge is sharp enough, that's the hope anyways. 

They wont let me leave. I'm stuck. 'They are going to hurt me they always end up hurting me'. The only thing playing in my head was that thought. I need to get out I need out before they can hurt me like the others. I'll finally be able to be with Finn again and spend the time that I was supposed to spend with him when we made it here. 

'Point under the rib and aim for the heart, they cant fix the heart'. I took a deep breath looking at the guards to see if either of them were looking my way. I look back down at the semi sharp rock in my hand . 'I just have to put enough force into the plunge and hope I get it through. Make no noise'. 

I could feel the blood before I felt the pain. A ragged breath left my mouth making on of the guards side eye me before his eyes went wide and started to unlock the door. 

"Get the Heda!" All I could do was smile at him as my breaths became labored. I hit something important. "Maria, Maria hey please what are you doing." I pushed the rock in as deep as I could get it. The guard finally made it to me, but it is to late. 

All I could hear was yelling, who's yelling I'm not sure but only yelling. 'This isn't a very peaceful way to die. There is to much yelling, why can't anyone be quiet'. I let out a choked laugh blood spilling from my mouth. I coughed up some more blood before finally deciding it was time to close my eyes and go to sleep. It wasn't my heart but it will work. 'Here I come Finn, I'm sorry it took this long.'