Grounder | An Anya Love Story

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Raven was screaming but all I felt was numb. I sunk to the ground with Raven crying into my chest. Finn was dead he was really dead, and he wasn't coming back. I gripped onto Raven tighter finally letting the pain out as I cried with her. 

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Maria 

I could hear Ravens sobs I could see the pain on our friends faces, but something in me just couldn't believe it. He was dead Finn was dead and Clarke killed him. She killed him. The world around me seemed to have moved in slow motion as I slowly made my way to the entrance of the camp. People tried to stop me I could hear Ravens sobs telling me to come back. But I couldn't bring myself to do it I just kept moving forward. Part of me didn't know where they were taking me but deep down I did know, they were taking me back to the camp. To Finn, to Clarke, to Anya. I needed Anya. 

I stumbled my way through the brush and the trees making my way back to the camp that held my friends and my family. There were footsteps behind me, I could hear them they weren't doing a good job at being quite so that's how I knew it wasn't a grounder. They didn't come closer then where they already were. 

I stumbled my way into their camp tears streaking down my face as I tried to make my way to Lexa and Clarke. I could see them Clarke looked sad. She didn't have the right to be sad she killed him. She didn't deserve to be sad she deserved to feel pain. 

Staking over to her I didn't think before my fist hit her face. One after the other I couldn't stop all I can think about was that she wasn't allowed to be sad she killed him, Finn is dead because of her. "This is all your fault" I yelled at her as I punched her in the face again. I could feel hands on me trying to pry me off of her. I could feel the blood from her face on my skin.

"Maria. Maria you need to stop you're going to kill her." I could hear Anyas voice trying to coax me out of this but all I could think about was hurting her like how she hurt Finn and Raven, and me. Ii just kept hitting her I couldn't seem to bring myself to stop I just wanted to hurt her, make her feel the pain I'm feeling. I think I got three more hits in before I felt hands encircle around my arms hauling me off of her. I didn't stop them their grip on my arms were tight like they were scared I was going to fight them and go right back to hitting her. I watched as Lexa went over to Clarke and helped her up, she was saying a few words but I knew that she was making sure that she was ok before her gaze landed on me. The guards pushed me to where I was sitting on my knees my arms still being held by them making sure I cant move. 

I watched as Lexa made her way over to me she crouched down in front of me and lifted my head so I could look her in the eye. "What was that maria. Why did you attack Clarke." I could hear the anger in her voice and I could tell she was trying not to lose her temper with me.

"She killed him" I whispered out the tears coming to my eyes again. "She killed him and then had the audacity to be sad." Her fingers gently touched my face and she wiped my tears "She killed him and then acts like she is the one in the most pain. Lexa" I sobbed out "Finn was my family, she only knew him for a couple months and yet she was the reason that he was even in this mess." At this point I was sobbing again Lexa was holding my face up trying to get me to stop crying. "She doesn't get to be sad she doesn't get to feel bad, she killed him and she needed to feel my pain. Why are you taking her side. You're supposed to be my friend my family." 

Lexa looked up and made eye contact with someone above me, who I can only assume to be Anya. "You're right." She pushed my hair out of my face "I was unfair to you, lets get you back to the tent and we can talk there ok?" I nodded my head and as soon as I did I felt the two men release my arms and let them go limp besides me. 

Hands grabbed my gently lifting me off the ground to where I was standing I looked over and saw Anya holding me gently like I was going to break, and maybe I was going to but not in the way she would think. My eyes scanned over the camp quickly before my gaze landed on Mark. So he was the one that was fallowing me. Anya fallowed my gaze before her eyes fell on him. I felt her go stiff besides me, all I could do was tighten my grip on her and hug her. I looked over at the guard closest to me "Make him leave take him back to their camp and you don't have to be gentle." I watched the smile make the way onto his face before giving me a nod and making his way to Mark. 

Turning back to Anya I leaned into her again as she pulled me to one of the tents tears streaming down my face.