Soul Mates

Jealous

Friday, October 1, 1999

*Logan's POV*

That evening, I suck at basketball practice and decide to call out from work. I drive straight to the pack house, a little training should get rid of some of my tension. I open the door to find Max waiting for me. "Where were you? How could you allow Leena to get hurt?" he asks, getting into my personal space. I try to remind myself that he's dating Mia, that she cares about him.

"Where were YOU? Surfing again?" I ask, poking his shoulder. He smirks, "You once told me that Mia was under your protection. As future Alpha, shouldn't that carry some weight? If you can't deal with Evan, then I will." Raegor doesn't like that at all. 'Mine to protect. Mine.'

"Cool your jets, Maxie boy. Evan's dad is our Beta. If you hurt his pup, he'll come after you. I don't care because I'm an alpha, but you should know your place omega." I put some alpha power behind my words and he lowers his head. "So we just let him go around hurting her?" he asks. I smile, a predatory smile. "I dare him to even look at her the wrong way again. I'm capable of ripping him to pieces to defend her and today he saw it in my eyes."

I train with Brian, one of the best fighters in the pack, for three hours. I'm so off my game that he beats me for the first time ever. I can't help it, I close my eyes and I see Evan kissing Mia. I know it didn't happen, but Raegor needs to hear it from Mia. "Dude, either I'm getting better or you are thinking about Carolina again." Brian says as he hands me a bottle of water. "I don't know what you're talking about." I play dumb, the pack must not find out how much I really care about Mia.

"Riiiight. Everyone saw you lose it on beta, jr. Your uncle is not going to like it. He might see it as you choosing a human over the pack. Personally, I enjoyed watching you beat the crap out of Evan. He deserved to be taken down a notch." He's right, damn it! My uncle will most likely be furious.

I shower and promise myself not to go to Mia's house. Max left me a message with one of the Omegas that both of the Cruz siblings were grounded for two weeks and I don't want to get them into more trouble.

The thought of going to my own house depresses me. My mom tends to get violent when she drinks. I could take her with my eyes closed but I feel so bad for her, and she's my mom after all. I feel partly responsible for her, if my dad wasn't a werewolf, they'd still be together. I've been crashing at Brian's for the last week, and there's always the pack house.

I decide to go out for a run, to try and take Evan and Mia out of my mind, and Raegor takes over. Before I know it, he has us climbing into Mia's room. I take a second by the window to sense who's in the house. I can smell Diego in his room but Carla must be out at work again. I hate that she has to work so hard, but I love how she'd do anything for her children.

*Carolina's POV*

I'm awoken from my sleep by someone sitting on my bed. At first I'm frightened but then I recognize Logan's smell. I look at the alarm clock. It's three in the freaking morning. I sigh and throw a pillow at him. "Go away, my mom said no you for two weeks." "I heard, but she's at work." he answers, still in the dark. "What are you doing on my bed?" He runs his hands through his hair and then his face. "I couldn't sleep. Mia, please for my sanity, did you sleep with Evan?" I sit up straight and turn on the lamp next to my bed. This is why he was here? In the middle of the night?

"I don't have to answer that." He moves closer to me. "I know, you already said it's none of my business. Except that everything about you IS my business. I'm going crazy here." He grabs my hands and starts drawing circles on the back of my wrists with his thumbs. It soothes me and I think it has the same effect on him. "You're jealous.", I say as a matter of fact. "Is that what this is? This pressure on my chest? My blood boils every time I think of Evan kissing you, touching you. Did it happen?"

I pull my hands away from his. "You are such a hypocrite, Logan Matthews. You feel like that just by imagining it while I have to see you kissing Cindy every day, touching Cindy every day. How do you think I feel?"  He stands up to pace around my room, it looks like he's waging an internal battle.

I sit on the foot of the bed and watch him for a good five minutes until suddenly he stops and sits next to me. "You feel like this? All the time?" I nod. "I'm so sorry. I didn't know, Mia. I've never felt like this, so possesive. It started when you met Max, but it's a lot worse now." "No one has ever paid any attention to me. No one's ever shown interest in me, so you never had the opportunity to feel jealousy. But, Angel, my angel, that's not a normal reaction for a friend."

He touches my face, the barest of touches. I can see in his eyes he's not ready to accept what he feels for me. I sigh and say, "The answer is no. I did not sleep with Evan. Happy?" He smiles and then frowns, "What about Max?" "No", I answer and his smile comes back until I add "Not yet, anyway."

In an instant Logan's on top of me, holding my hands over my head with his. I hate to admit it but I like the feel of his body on mine. I can tell something is changing in him, he never used to get mad or angry before, he was never this impulsive either. Max really turned his world upside down.

"Not yet? I think you meant not ever, Mia. Not ever." I smile, loving how easy it is to provoke him. "How about you? Have you been with Cindy?" He understands what I mean. How can he expect me to stay a virgin when he himself has been with so many other girls? He lets my hands go and spoons me. I love feeling small in his embrace.

"I'm sorry. It's like I can't control myself when it comes to you. There are things you don't know, things you wouldn't understand. I need time to figure some things out, could you please wait for me until then?" I tense, is he asking me to wait for him? He doesn't speak again and I don't answer. I fall asleep in his embrace and wake up to an empty bed.