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[breakup series: nct dream] - mark

[hi guys... i've thought hard and long about this decision... it really wasn't an easy choice... but... i've decided... i'm going to be a soft stan from now on... thank you ily all owo]

[song; before you go —> lewis capaldi]

[23:18]

"mark, get back inside the fucking house!"

she screamed at him, lungs bursting with every word, tears welling up in her eyes as mark fixed his coat on the doorsteps.

"i'm never taking a step inside that house ever again if all you keep doing is yelling at me like i'm a fucking child!"

mark continued to walk on, nearing his car as he unlocked it, getting in and switching the engine on.

the whole reason for the fights that took place was because no one knew how to hold the relationship up anymore.

she was sick of how mark kept ignoring her, mark was tired of how much she doubted him.

"mark! i'm sorry! i won't yell at you anymore! i'm just worried!"

she yelled after him just as he shut his door, tears finally spilling from mark's eyes as he thinks over his decisions.

was he doing the right thing right now?

i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, mark thought.

he took one glance back at you before he sucked in a breath.

but i was just kidding myself, he thought.

then mark got out of his car and ran to her, quick, throwing his arms around her and pulling her close to his chest.

• • •

[02:31]

"do you want to be with me?"

mark asked, sliding into the sheets.

he had just gotten home.

"i love you, mark."

she replied, not moving an inch as mark slid an arm over her waist.

"these days it doesn't seem like it. was there something i could've said to make your heart beat better?"

he asked, kissing the back of her head.

"i'm just tired, mark."

"okay."

he mumbled.

"i love you. can you face me?"

she didn't say anything for a short while, keeping herself still before she removed his arm and got up.

"i'm sorry, mark."

mark quickly sat up, reaching a hand out to tug at his large tee that she was wearing.

"for what? where are you going? it's 2am."

she turned around to look at him, an expression that shook his heart so hard he lost his grip.

"i'm sleeping on the couch tonight, there's a blanket there."

she said and mark bit his lip, watching as his girlfriend neared the bedroom door.

"so, before you go... was there something i could've said to make it all stop hurting?"

he whispered to her, hoping she would hear, and she did.

"it kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless. you know i love you so much, right?"

mark let his eyes fall to the ground and sighed.

"sleep well, mark."

she said and closed the door behind her.

• • •

[16:15]

when mark saw her again, all he could think was how she had left so suddenly.

she walked away from the boy behind so easily that there was not a single fiber in him that understood the reason why.

the boy was left with no explanation for her departure.

they went little by little by little until there was nothing at all.

what exactly had he done that changed the love in her heart for him?

he wanted to talk to her, say a couple words to make her remember their past together.

it was when their eyes met that mark felt the urge to run up to her and hold her in his arms.

but he held back that urge and fought it so hard his heart couldn't contain itself.

"before you go—"

he said aloud, the words running around in his mind over and over as mark paused.

then she turned around and looked behind her as if someone had called out her name, not hearing a word that had left his lips.

mark watched as another man ran to hug her from the side, her lips stretching out into a large grin as he threw her arms around him.

he spun around and continued to walk in the direction opposite from the pair, obvious tears in his eyes from which the boy had tried to swipe away with his hands.

well, mark thought,

time can can heal, but this won't.