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those three words - ateez hongjoong

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his arms were over your stomach, latching onto you tight as he sweetly but soundly slept, eyelashes merely fluttering in his slumber.

you were awake, only slightly, with the light shining through the wispy curtains of the hotel room, your body still entangled into the man as you buried your head into his warmth.

hongjoong was not yours and he would never be yours but the both of you knew how dangerous your relationship right now was, not that it would affect anyone but yourselves and your hearts.

however, despite never wanting to actually commit and stay tied to each other, you've worked your own way of interaction, sleeping with each other often to fill the emptiness and void of being lonely on nights where your hearts screamed out.

it would have made sense that the two of you kept finding yourselves returning to each other's arms.

in the depths of your relationship with hongjoong lies an emotion you'd rather not deal with at all in hopes of never encountering that old feeling of sadness in a time of your life where you've felt more hopeless in love.

hongjoong knew you weren't someone he could just have or keep by his side forever and no matter how much that thought crossed his mind, hongjoong did not love you and he will never.

but when you toss and turn away from the naked man entangled within your own body in these very same sheets, he pulls you near his form again, wanting to savour the very last minutes with you before the clock strikes eight and he has to go until he craves your touch again.

hongjoong was not a man of many words but when the time calls for him to leave you, he always says the same thing.

so as your so desperately wanting to fall back asleep to miss the moment when he slips away, the alarm rings and the man is quick to shut off the loud irritation of sounds.

he grumbles and you still, pretending to be asleep in his arms just before he leans into you once again, those three words spilling from his lips like a lie.

"i love you."

hongjoong whispers, so sure that you could hear him through your pretending state.

just like always, you melt into him, letting his words wrap around you like a blanket of hope before it unravels once his foot steps out the hotel door.

and so when the door shuts and there's no trace of his existence in the room full of light anymore, your mind grows dark with every passing second, letting tears trickle down your face in defeat.

then you wonder to yourself, again and again, like before if those three words ever meant anything to hongjoong at all.