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[breakup series: nct dream] - renjun

[lol we was jokin bout that soft stan shi- i can't give up wOrN.. :<]

[warning: renjun drinks and is intoxicated, if uncomfortable then please skip]

[song; need you now —> lady antebellum]

[01:17]

being here in the place where he's made the most memories with you brings a tear to his eye as he sits down on the ground.

renjun leans his back on the front door, throwing his head back as he grips the almost-empt bottle firmly in hand.

he takes one last final swig before he throws the glass bottle out into the open ground, pieces of the structure flying into the air as it shattered.

renjun's reaching for the phone in his pocket.

only because i can't fight it anymore, he thought to himself.

automatically it goes to voicemail, as expected, so he lets out a scoff that shakes his own mind up.

what the hell was he doing here now?

"i wonder if i ever cross your mind,"

he says into the phone, the recording capturing his exhausted voice perfectly.

"for me it happens all the time."

renjun stands up, only keeping himself upright and straight after wobbling a bit back and forth, his mind playing games with him.

"it's a quarter after one, i'm all alone and i need you now,"

he whispers, leaning his forehead up against the front door, tears spilling from his eyes as he sobs.

"said i wouldn't call but i lost all control and i need you now."

then renjun hangs up the phone, throwing it onto the ground but the device doesn't break one bit, causing the anger in him to boil.

he can't stop looking at the door.

he lays against it again before letting out a heavy sigh, sliding down to reach the ground.

guess i'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all, renjun thought, his mind too clouded with emotions to properly think.

it was just at that moment that her car pulled into the driveway, her figure beautifully exiting the vehicle with such grace that it made his heart pound.

then she notices him standing here, unaware of the broken glass on her grass or the phone he's thrown onto the ground.

"renjun, what are you doing here?"

she asks, pulling out a set of keys and unlocking her door.

he couldn't do anything and felt that if he made even the slightest move, something would definitely go wrong for him.

"i said i wouldn't call but i'm a little drunk and i need you now."

renjun states, following in after her and closing the door, cheeks stained with tears.

she drops her coat onto the couch, tired and exhausted from a long night at the office, before turning to meet her ex-boyfriend's sleepy eyes.

"this is the second time this week that you've come here, renjun. when are you going to understand the fact that i cannot be in a relationship with you anymore?"

then renjun's hands tug at her waist, pulling her in closer towards him, lips aching to touch hers with every passing second.

"then you don't have to be in a relationship with me, but please let me have this once more."

he presses a kiss to her jaw before softly kissing her lips, his drunken state finally taking over his soul.

"i promise after this i'll leave you alone."

she gasps when his hands wrap around her thighs, lifting her legs up.

"you're drunk, renjun—"

he stops her with another kiss, another tear rolling from his eye.

"i know, but i don't know how i can do without,"

renjun says, easily navigating the way through to her bedroom from his memories.

"i just need you now."