Everything Started Here With You

Divorce? I Think Not

"Trust is like glass. Once broken, the cracks will be visible...Even if you glue the broken pieces back together."

-- When the Weather is Fine

Hayden, the kids, and I were at the park, taking in the fading afternoon sun. The kids were running around, burning off the sugar they had a couple of hours before. Hayden and I were long past due for the talk. He knows exactly what I mean and he knows I won't let the problem go until I can rant about it.

"I'm really sorry about what I did, baby," he complained. "It was all my fault and I shouldn't have done it. Forgive me."

"...Why should I?" I asked and crossed my arms. "It's not like you actually care about mine or the kids' wellbeing."

"I do. I really do. I love you all just the way you are."

I rolled my eyes and moved away from him. He loved us?! Ha, he had to be kidding. I have never heard him say he loved us without being tempted to. Or even when he's with his drinking buddies. Never once have I heard him tell me he loved me in front of them. I feel like he's forced to whenever I give him the look.

"I seriously don't get you, Hayden Williams. You always make the best of the situation for you. What about me and the kids? You really don't think when you do something that stupid, do you?"

"I was drunk, Kera. I can't control what I say."

I sighed. This man was going to be the death of me. I swear if he did something as stupid as he did just a couple of days ago again, I was going to kick him to the curb. He'll wish he had never met me and knocked me up so he could marry me.

"How would you like it if I went to your friends' girlfriends and asked them how I could quietly divorce you. A famous model doctor who is never quiet about anything, huh?" I demanded. "Would you like that? Would you like it if I did it while sober?"

"Honey--"

"It doesn't matter. Drunk or not, you shouldn't have asked them about it. I was going to find out sooner or later. Then...slapping the papers on the table and asking me to sign them! I'm never going to let that go."

"I noticed," he muttered.

"I will murder you."

"You know what..." Hayden sighed and stood up. "It's time to go home. We can talk about it later when the kids are sleeping and nothing can wake them up."

"Alright," I agreed. "Let's do that, but some things will be changing."

"Changing?"

"What? You scared or something, baby?"

"I'm not--I--No," he stuttered.

Yeah. I definitely had him scared.

"You know...if you hold a grudge while going to sleep, you might die in your sleep, right?"

"Why haven't you died yet?"

"Not fair."

"Exactly, stupid."

Hayden laughed and laid beside me. I was really tempted to just kick him off the bed and make him sleep on the couch in the basement. It wouldn't be a problem since he likes being down there 24/7.

"Move before something bad happens to you, stupid."

"Why do you keep calling me that? It's not like I actually got caught asking them or anything."

"Might as well if someone told me you did it before you slapped the papers on the dinner table...stupid."

I smiled to myself, knowing this was annoying him. You see, I wasn't mad at him. Not one bit. I was only trying to see how he would respond to me knowing that if he does something like that again, he'll know I'll let him do it. Now that I have him where I want him, all he has to do is disappointment and I'll pretend I never said no to those divorce papers.