Everything Started Here With You

International Spy

"In your life, only your decisions are the correct answer."

Kim Shin
--Goblin

I wasn't even surprised to find myself shoved underneath Hayden's arm when I woke up. At least he wasn't smelly. Only then would I have pitched a fit and both of us would be grouchy. That's when I noticed that it was still dark outside. Was it early morning or did we really only get only a couple of hours of sleep? It sort of made sense to only get a couple of hours of sleep. We were busy yesterday, so I kept slipping in and out of consciousness all day.

"Hey...you up too?" Hayden asked in a groggy voice. Hot.

"Yeah," I muttered. "Could you move your arm? I feel like I'm suffocating."

"Not sorry." He moved his arm. I shifted to look at him, wondering what was going on inside his head. Sometimes I wondered if he really loved me. As I said before, he never really showed affection unless he had a reason to. Like at the restaurant and at his sister's house. Of course he wouldn't want them to think we weren't getting along.

Hayden closed his eyes to go back to sleep. I kept staring, wanting him to stay up with me. I knew I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep. I didn't know what time it was and it was always hard for me to clear my mind when I awoke before sunrise. Hayden's eyes snapped open as if he knew I was watching him.

"What?" he asked. "Why are you staring at me like a creep?"

"...Nothing..." My eyes flickered from his eyes to his lips and back again. He didn't catch the movement, so I did it again.

"Nothing?" He smiled. "What's going on in that pretty little head of yours?"

"Nothing, babe. Just go back to sleep."

"I can't if you won't tell me. I think you might try to kill me."

I only laughed and convinced Hayden he was being crazy. Why would I waste my time thinking about ways to kill him when I could just kill him? If I really wanted to do that, I would have hurt him a long time ago. Like when we first got married or something. Made sense since we weren't on good terms when we were forced into this life.

"Go back to sleep, doll."

"Why me? You should sleep. No one wants to deal with a grumpy Hayden." I snuggled with him. "And...I you know how I feel about grumpy Hayden."

"You love me all the time. There's no way you'd ever be angry with me however I act," he said with a laugh. He did not know me.

Hayden shifted to lay on his back. That left me nearly stuffed in his armpit again. I sighed and moved also, throwing myself across his chest. He only shifted a bit, but didn't bother to put his arms around me. I have had enough. I reached down under the covers and clutched his family jewels. I felt him flinch, but he didn't do anything but groan.

"Hold me or I'll kill you," I threatened.

He only groaned some more, pretending not to care about me ripping his testicles off. Did this man really think I was playing? He's the one who only cared for sex. I could live without having sex every other day. I was more than okay living on my own.

"I said hold me," I growled.

"The longer you hold me like that, the more I'm going to not want to hold you." He chuckled. "It's not hurting me and you know it."

I was more than glad I hadn't cut my nails down. The moment he jerked in pain was when I knew I had done what he hadn't wanted me to do. Hayden grabbed my wrist and tightened his grip till I felt my hand was going to fall off. It was only a matter of seconds did I realize I had gotten what I wanted.