My True Soulmate (Harlena Fanfiction)

Chapter 30

Ashton

Oh, my God. What did I do? Harry's going to kill me. Darcy's going to hate me. Gosh, what have I done. I knew it. I knew I waited to long for this. I haven't even told her how I escaped the government yet.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

I love Darcy. I do. I haven't stopped loving her since the day I knew I had fallen for her. I knew I should've went after her when I escaped the government. I missed her. I missed her so much and it tore me to shreds. I should've came back.

I made the decision to leave her. Let her be happy and find love. She did. She found Harry and she's even more than happy. She's happier with Harry than she is with me. How? What does he have that I don't? What does he do that I didn't do before?

I regret ever leaving her now. I regret it all. I want my Darcy back. I need her. Now that she's awake and well, I need her. I've always needed her though. Her smile, her eyes, her laugh, her hair - everything. She was my everything. And now she's gone.

I wonder how she feels. Now that she's in love with Harry and in a serious relationship with him, I just wonder what she thinks of me. Does she still love me? Does she care? Did she miss me? Did she cry her eyes out just like I did every night when we weren't together? Did she long for my touch like I longed for hers? Did she want to kiss me just once more, as did I?

My heart tears with each thought and every question. There's a giant hole in my heart, saved especially for Darcy. My baby. Why did I ever let her go? I promised that I'd never let her go. I promised that I'd be with her forever whether there was a law or not. I promised that I'd always be with her, no matter the consequences - no matter what. I broke them. I broke all of my promises.

Maybe that's why. Maybe, just maybe, she loathes me for leaving her. But how could she think I left her if she didn't know that I was never dead? I told myself that I'd come back for her and I did. Wrong timing that was though. At first I was glad that she found Harry, someone who will love her and be with her to no end but now I can't stand the shattering of my heart when I see the way she looks at him.

I've never seen her eyes light up so bright. I've never seen her face glow more. I've never seen her smile so wide. She looks at Harry with such admiration and love. Her skin glows at the sight of him. Goosebumps noticeably raise at his touch. I see the way she can't help but smile at Harry when he shows a sign of love and care.

Why can't she be like that with me? Because she found someone better. She found Harry. Someone that everybody loves because he's genuine, he cares and he's nothing but nice. But who couldn't love a girl like Darcy? She's amazing. She's lovable, adorable, sees the importance of life itself and she's genuinely nice. That's why Harry and Darcy as so compatible! They're just like each other.

I don't fit into that at all.

"Wait!" someone shouted from behind me.

When I told Darcy that I loved her - in front of everyone - and cried, I got up and left. I was just about out the door when someone shouted from behind me. I turned around and didn't really expect to see the person coming after me. Dakota.

Dakota didn't exactly know about mine and Darcy's affair but I did visit as a "friend" and Dakota treated me like a brother. "How are you here, Ash?" she asked.

I didn't answer. I wanted Darcy to be the first one to know how I survived.

"Forget about that - why didn't you come back earlier if you were still alive?! Did you how much Darcy and I suffered from your loss? You were like my little brother! You were my little sister's best friend and then I found out that you two were dating the entire time. Darcy didn't come out of her room for days and would not stop crying. My dad died shortly after you were supposed to and you were alive. You didn't come and support either of us!"

Dakota was nearly in tears as she finished. Tears streamed down her face as she stood there, breathing in short pants. I tried to contain my sobs but it was no use. I fell to the ground on my nears and let out all my cries, not caring how loud I was.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry! I thought it was right at the time but - God, I miss you guys so much! I want my baby back!" I cried. "I love Darcy! I love her so much..."

Dakota walked over to me, an angry look on her face as she tilted my face to look up to her. "She's with Harry now and it's all your fault. I don't care how harsh I sound, it's because of you that we suffered these past few months. It's all your fault! You-"

"Dakota." someone said from the doorway. Harry and Dakota's soul mate - Zach or something - stood on the porch, watching us. "Leave the poor boy alone. He's been through enough and so have you. Right now, it's time to focus on your sister."

Dakota rolled her eyes and turned on her heels to walk inside. Harry stayed outside, watching as Dakota and her soul mate walked in. I was still on my knees, body slumped, as Harry walked over and stuck his arm out.

"C'mon lad. Get up." I grabbed his arm as he pulled me up. I muttered a small 'thanks'. He patted my back, "You alright, mate?"

I shrugged.

"Let's head inside, yeah? Darcy wants to talk to you."

My eyes widened. Harry pulled me inside the house and led me to the couch Darcy laid on surrounded by her family. I sat next to Stevie who was engaged in a gossip-filled conversation with Darcy.

"Bonnie managed to get Damon out of Kai's hell but sadly she stayed! Sorry not sorry." Stevie rushed her words and then backed away.

My eyes finally met Darcy's beautiful brown ones that I fell in love with. She smiled. "Hi."

"Hi." I mumbled. My smile came freely, though. Her smile makes me smile - any day. "What's up?"

Darcy giggled. Her smile faltered at her thoughts. "How did you survive? You were supposed to, um, supposed to-"

"-die. Yeah, I know."

"So what happened?"

I let out a long breath, not ready for everyone in the room to hate me. I went through with it anyways. "Your dad saved me. He helped me escape and that's how he was murdered. He didn't have cancer, he was murdered."

A/N HOLY POO