Diana (Niall Horan Fanfic)

Chapter Twenty-Nine

Niall's POV

It broke my heart that Diana had lost all rights towards me. You saved me and with that I gave you the power to kill me and you used it. The words just swam around in my head. Over and over again. I guess I didn't realise but breaking up with Diana hurt her so bad. It wasn't my fault though, Diana's heartbreak was down to Management. Simon tried to tell them but they decided that the only way to make me seem more popular in the band was to split up with Diana and date Selena. I hate being with Selena; she's nothing like my Di. Her kisses aren't as soft, her hugs aren't cuddly, nothing about her is similar at all. I want to tell Diana so bad but I was threatened with my place in One Direction, even the boys aren't allowed to know. Seeing Diana like this is only breaking my own heart and what's worse is that Selena generally thinks I like her when really I nothing more than despise her. I've had to use her to make someone I'm ready to marry have a broken heart. I hate feeling like this and it's so selfish of me to do this to keep my place in the band but the band is all I've really got apart from my family.

Diana's POV

I woke up to my phone ringing beside me. I groaned before slapping my phone to answer the call.

Phone call:

Caller: Hi Diana, this is Dave.
Diana: Hi Dave, how can I help?
Dave: Are you free to wok today? It's just some of the models can't make it and I know you're meant to be on a break but we really need someone who can really model and you and El are those girls.
Diana: Dave chill, I'll be there. Give me a time and place.
Dave: Great! The usual studio at half twelve?
Diana: I'll be there. Do you want me to tell El?
Dave: No, I'll tell her. Also, I've read about all this stuff with that boy Niall and I think it's best if you get away from London so we're transferring you to the Irish branch but all expenses will be paid for. That's including a flat.
Diana: Okay! I really need that right now! Thanks so much Dave! I'll see you later!
Dave: Bye dear.

I made a kissy noise before ending the call. Dave was my manager for my TOPSHOP and Victoria's Secret modelling so he was in charge of all the shoots I did and where I was working etcetera. I quickly looked at the time on my phone and saw that it was already 10.35 in the morning. Literally jumping out of bed, I grabbed my phone and ran out to the kitchen. I went over to the cupboard and got out a bowl and then filled the the bowl with fresh strawberries and blueberries and plain vanilla Greek yoghurt. I quickly began eating and when I was finished, put the bowl and spoon in the dishwasher and turned it on before running back to my room and choosing my outfit. After I chose my outfit I walked into my bathroom and started up the shower. When the temperature had adjusted I stripped from my pyjamas and climbed under the water. I did everything I needed to in the shower and then climbed out, wrapping a towel around my body. I walked out into my bedroom and retrieved my hair dryer and then plugged it in and began drying my hair. When my hair was dry I got out some underwear and began to get changed into a white Mickey Mouse sequinned jumper, blue jeans and white Nike shoes. I then applied my usual makeup before getting my brush and brushing through my knotty hair. When my hair was brushed out I curled it nearly and then began plaiting it so it was a waterfall braid. I got a bunch of bracelets and slipped them on my left wrist and then tied on my light pink watch into my right wrist. I put a gold bow diamanté ring on my right index finger and put some light pink heart studs into my ears. When I was finished getting myself ready I slipped my phone into my stripy Victoria's Secret case and threw that and my purse into my white Michael Kors bag. Checking the time on my watch I saw that it was already 11.45 which meant I had time to call for El and then get on my way to the studio.

Holding my bag I locked my flat and then went out and knocked on Eleanor's door. A shirtless Louis answered looking extremely tired. "Is El in?" I asked him. "Yeah, she's just putting her shoes on. Something about a photoshoot." He mumbled. Suddenly, El appeared all glammed up. "Bye Lou, see you later." She said, pecking Louis on the cheek. He nodded before walking into the flat and shutting the door behind himself. "I have something to tell you on the way." I said as we walked down to my car. When we reached my car we both got inside and I started up the engine. "Okay, what do you need to tell me?" El asked. "Dave has read about everything between me and Niall in the papers and he thinks it's best if he sends me to TOPSHOP and Victoria's Secret, Ireland. I get a flat in Ireland too and I'll be with Dave still as my manager but I'll have another manager in Ireland that will tell me stuff Dave can't through the phone." I said, a bit of sadness ringing clear in my voice. "Maybe it's best for you Di." El said slowly. "I know it is but I'll be leaving everyone. I don't have anyone in Ireland anymore I'll basically be on my own El. You're not going to be one door away, you're going to be a whole sea away." I sighed. "We'll sort something out though Diana. We always do, you just have to promise me that you won't go back to your old ways." She said softly. In that moment everything I ever did or said to inflict myself was brought back in a huge flash and I couldn't handle it at all. I broke down into a fit of sobs. "I don't get it El! Why wasn't I good enough for him?! We were doing so well and then he just dropped me on the side like a piece of trash! Am I not pretty enough? Skinnier enough? Smart enough? Brave enough? What?! I just don't get it El! I can't do it anymore! Everything something good happens something bad follows straight after! I just don't get a break! These demons..they sit inside my head and they tell me that I'm not good enough for anyone! They consume every part of me! I'm constantly kept in a world of hell and these demons control me! I don't want to be this girl anymore! I can't cope!" I screamed, slamming my hands and my head against the steering wheel. "Diana! Diana calm down! Please! Don't do this Diana! Don't relapse! You're doing so well! You're being so strong!" El whimpered. "You know, being strong is such a hard task. You stay strong to keep everyone around you sane and it's the hardest thing ever. When you break everyone around you does too and it's the worst thing to watch. I'm just destructive, an atomic bomb and when I'm set off I'll destruct everything close to me. I can't destroy you like that." I cried, sobbing uncontrollably. "You want me to get someone?" El asked, now also crying. "No! No! No! No! I need to be alone! You need to call someone and ask them to take you to the photoshoot. I have to have some time alone or I'm gonna blow and you're not going to be the first person I destroy." I said, still hitting the steering wheel. "Okay Di, you're going to be okay." El whispered, taking my head in her hands and stroking my hair gently. "Go, just go." I whispered. She let go of my head and opened the car door. "You're going to be okay." She whispered. That's the last thing I heard her say because I shut the passenger door and head off down the road.