DARK SOUL'S: The Story You Started

ISHITA

They say “ Whenever you will take your last breath you will have the whole flashback of your life”, and if it’s true I want to see what was wrong back in there for the last time.
I take a deep breath and headed towards the elevator without any second thought, maybe I could do that and if not, then there will be a big mess. He’s watching me intently this whole time. like he’s waiting for me to freak out or something. He punches some unknown code on the display while watching me.
As the elevator starts to move I tried to take deep breaths but it starts to suffocates me NO! NO! it just five floors and you will be alright, I repeat those words with myself, I glanced at Ethan’s direction, he was busy with his phone. Thank God! he hasn’t seen me yet,
I clutch my coat tightly around me, but it didn’t help me to control my body shivering and the darkness came! Yes, It came and I couldn’t open my eyes, I guess I collapse but someone or Ethan grab me before falling down, I heard him screaming my name many more times.
I haven’t had any nightmare last night but that doesn’t mean I don’t have any. It was written by god now and I have to survive with them. Darkness consumed me completely and I felt numb, after that I didn’t hear him or anyone else to say anything.

“ Ishita come on yaar, You know we were planning for this for a long time, You can’t cancel it in front of my face” Navin whine.
They were planning to go on the trip, it’s not a trip,  It’s trekking, they want to climb somewhere in Nashik and we have to wake up early in the morning, then take a train from Mumbai, then reach there and start to trek down that mountain. I love trekking too, but I’m not really in a mood to go with them by tomorrow, It's Sunday tomorrow, I will have the whole day for myself.
“ Navin, I’m really not in a mood to go there, can’t we just postpone it;  till next Sunday maybe”
“ And you will make some another reason again,” Rishabh said and I rolled my eyes, He’s really getting on my nerves.
“ Fine, I’m done! I don’t want to go there ever, Happy now” I snapped angrily at both of them.
They looked at me with wide-eyes and burst out into horrible laughter, Really!!
I stand up to leave from there, they can enjoy there joke.
“ Oh No, Sorry Ishu, but you know you are really cute when you’re mad,” Rishabh said.
“ First of all don’t Ishu me, and second I’m really mad on both of you, so don’t take this granted” I gave them my pointed look and they nod their heads together grinning, Damn boy’s, I tried to suppress my smile.
“ Okey,,,, So you are coming. and if not! we will see how to kidnap you” Navin threatened me. I rolled my eyes again and didn’t say a word.
They both grab me from each side and scooped me up.
“ You crazy, put me down” I yelled. They just laughed.

I jerked open my eyes. Aww, My head hurts, I looked around and gasped it’s an unknown place where I am?
I tried to sit up, and see Ethan’s sitting beside me, sleeping on the chair, there is an IV line attached to my arm.
SHIT!, the realization hit me. I passed out in front of him, What should I have to tell him when he will start questioning me? I have to come up with something very quickly, but will lie hide me behind bars, Eventually, someday he will know and that will be the worst case if he will ask or verify me about the things I have said, whether if that was the truth or a lie.
I kept myself captivated for a long time, it doesn’t matter where I lived. But this is the time where I have to put my guard down and face reality.
Ethan woke up after some time and his eyes met with me,
“ Sorry, Did I wake you up,” I asked
“ Um_ No you didn’t,” He sits up straight and rubbed his eyes, he is trying to focus on me.
“ Where I am now?” I enquired.
“ In my condo, Relax! it’s just behind our Office,” He noticed my anxious expressions.
I was waiting for him to say something but I don’t think he will ask me, He’s just sat there quietly,  looking at me. And there was an only sound of dripping my IV.
“ Why are you looking at me like that?” I was uncomfortable under his gaze.
“ Looking at you like what?”
I hesitated “ Like you are waiting for me to say something” I shrugged
“ Because I am, but I’m not going to ask you unless you want to say anything”
I took a deep breath,
“ Sorry,” I said
“ About what?” He gave me a questioning look.
“ About what happened earlier, I passed out in front of you and got you in trouble” I shrugged, he needs to understand that was my problem, not his.
He shakes his head in disbelief.
“ I wasn’t in trouble, you were the one!” He stopped and come around to sit beside me. 
“ Ishita, I have so many things to ask you, but I don’t want to push you in any way. The thing is that I need to clear my head and if you care about me slightly, tell me the truth, What was that? What’s bothering you? please just tell me” He was pleading.
I closed my eyes, my eyes start to tear. I can’t control them. He deserved to know the truth. Maybe after that, I will call Mr. Siraj and see if he will help me and want me there.
“ I’m afraid of the elevator or every other dark thing on this planet, also heights, I am acrophobic” Before he could say anything I start,
His eyes shoot up at me
“ Why? Since when?” He asked uncertainly.
I take another shaky breath.
“ There are two different stories in my past, about the elevators is, I lost my best friend in that. It should be me in there dying but he pushed me away and I couldn’t save him, I should have fought more for him but I lost him.
I continued before he would ask me or say anything,

“ Me, Rishabh and Navin, We were best friends since college, that day, they forced me to come with them at trekking.
I wasn’t interested but eventually, they convinced me to come, next day Rishabh came to pick me up and we headed towards college to picked up Navin from there he used to live there in the dorms, It was early in the morning with Sunday, so we don’t see anyone in there, we didn’t know anything about the elevator nor there was anything displayed. So we take them but when we got in,  It starts to shake in the halfway, Rishabh was always sensible and calm. he knew it, there was something wrong. And We won’t make it, I was screaming for help. If someone could hear us. But nobody came and it shook uncontrollably. I remembered I clutched at Rishabh and he was pushing me somewhere, It was a dark place and the door slid open. I thought we were safe but No! I was sliding towards the gate and Rishabh pulled me in the opposite direction before I can see what he was doing?  He was there another side of the elevator, where I was,  I held his hand closed,  We could die together. But he threw me away from him and that was it! I lost his grasp and he falls down.
I still remembered his eyes, The way he was watching me in that dark. there were so many unspoken words said by him, I was unconscious I don’t know for how much time, and after that, I didn’t speak for months.”

I start to Shivering as I remembered all those things.
Uncontrollable sobs escaped from my chest, I still remembered his eyes. Those eyes want me to do something to save him, I want to be there in his place, I could’ve died happily. It’s been long since I have said these things loudly, but it won’t heal me. It will never have the ability to heal my wound.
Maybe If I would have said No to them that day and stuck to my words, this wouldn’t happen. That incident changed everything my life, my dreams, my friends, and there remains only silence, darkness, and pain which we are going through, I am now habitual to live and grieve this pain.
“ ISHITA! No, you weren’t responsible for that, there were only two of you” He took my hands to soothe me, but will it do anything good?
I couldn’t say anything neither he did, there was a silence in between us for a few minutes and he spoke.
“ Ishita, that wasn’t your fault, Don’t do that to yourself” I nod in acknowledgment, that’s what all people’s and my therapist were saying all the time. But it will be the same sorrow with the same intensity all time of the days for the rest of my life.
He was watching me with so many things in his eyes but the last thing, I want is sympathy from him. I start to get up to leave, I have to leave from here as soon as possible. I need to see what plans Mr. Siraj has for me. There is no way I will stay here after this. Should I walk away from here from all the problems of my life? Should I just run!!
“ Where are you going” Ethan interrupts me.
“ Home” I removed IV from my vain flow by myself.
“ Ishita, you are not in that condition right now” He bites his tongue as I turned toward him, Does he know another part of me NO!! Because that’s worst. He thinks I will break down, Oh Come on!!
“I am not a glass, Don’t worry about me.”
He withdraws exaggerated breath.
“ Okay fine, just let me drop you, Please!” He emphasized.
I nod, I really don’t have that much energy to argue with him right now.
We leave his condo as soon as possible, the ride to my apartment was silent. I didn’t say anything nor he asked me anything after that and I’m thankful to him for not showing any kind of pity. 
I don’t know, why he’s bothering to know anything about me, there is no need for him to be here for me. Besides, I’m an independent woman. I am taking care of myself from long ago, sure I had many more problems than anyone will ever have but that doesn’t mean I needed to be fixed. I was broken inside out impossibly and no one can fix me up, that’s for sure. I don’t need them to do that.