DARK SOUL'S: The Story You Started

ISHITA

Yes! I noticed that every damn thing!

When he left my house, There’s the only thing in my mind to get in here on my own.
Therapy sessions are not as easy as we think they are, They take every ounce of pain from your body and It feels like, Every last thing you have been feeling pounding back in your heart and there’ll be a great chance,  If I couldn’t handle it myself. I don’t want to fall apart in front of him, But he’s not listening to me and I know he’ll show up! Dammit.
I gathered my all courage to call Navin. He’s the one who needs to know all those things;  And I know it wasn’t easy for him either.
“ Hey, Ishu” He greets me.
“ Hi, How are you?” I inquired as I don’t know what to say anything other than that.
“ Great, and You” He pressed.
“ Um_ Good I guess,.... Actually NO!, Navin it’s really difficult to cope with this pain. It doesn’t go away. You said I’ll be fine in here, But No navin my past is my shadow, it is never going leave me ever, I’m trying nav, Trying really hard not to remember him, not to blame myself. But I can’t forget his eyes! I hope it would be me in his place” I sobbed. He was silent for a long time.
“ Ishu,,, I think it’s time, to tell you something you didn’t know this whole time, and maybe it’ll increase your pain but you need to know that!” I froze in my place and he continued.
“ He’s in love with you Ishu, For a long time but he didn’t know how to confessed that to you and he thought it’ll affect your friendship with him, And he never had that courage to take that step. Also, you’re always hard towards people and wounded up. I can’t blame him for that. But let me again tell you, Ishu he loved your infectious smile, he’s crazy for you. He wouldn’t be happy seeing you like this” That was the revelation, I was afraid of this thing this whole time.
I cover my face with my hands and cried. It can’t be possible! But As I looked into the flashback everything fell into a place.
He’s such a charmer with great humour. He could have got anyone he wants in his life, but he chose me and left me here miserable behind him. It’s really difficult to breathe with those things and Yes! it’ll increase my pain impossibly.
“ Ishita, Are you okay” Rishabh, I exhaled long deep breath to correct myself, “ Yes, Navin, I’m fine, I’m heading to the therapist, You know Dr. Rutuja right? her batch mate is practicing in here.” I took a deep breath Yes, I need to do that and I’m not going back now.
“ Yeah? that’s great, When do you have your session?”
“ I’m leaving now”
“ Okay, Ishu, are you really fine?” I wanted to scream to say No I am not fine at all, but I know he’ll regret the things he has exposed. I get up to leave.
“ Yes, Navin I’m really fine, don’t worry” I locked the door behind me and turned to find Ethan behind me, Our eyes locked and he’s just looking at me.
“ Are you planning to visit?” Navin’s voice caught my attention.
“Yes, of course, I’ll visit but not this early,” I said and he nods in acknowledgment.
We hung up after a few minutes.
I tried to get busy with myself. Already I have too much load on my shoulders and right now I don’t want to think about him or anyone.
I noticed the way he’s watching me in front of my door, then in the car and he also tried to assure me. He thinks I am freaking out because of that session,
He doesn’t know the actual reason behind my silence. I noticed the way he tried to lighten me up with his random things, But there’s always something in my heart.
Besides,  all of these things; I felt something different with him today, he’s behaving oddly with me today. God, please don’t mess up these things like you have already done in my life.
“ Well, that boy is into you huh” Dr. Phill closed his office door and stated. I was shocked;  Why on the earth he thinks like that? 
“ No, I mean why would he!” I replied confidently. There is no way for the thing like that.
“ If you say So..!!” He shrugged and took a seat. I wanted to debate but I couldn’t.
Dr. Phill’s office is better than other offices I’ve seen earlier. It’s elegant, colourful and there is a portable bench with a lot of books on either side of it.
“ Take a seat,” He said, his back was on me and I obeyed his order.
“ Well Ishita as this is your first session, I want you to tell me what happened today?” That’s a different question I am facing than the usual one. 
“ Nothing much, I was reading books, had a call from my friend and came here that’s all!” He nods in understanding.
“ I asked you to tell me what happened and not your schedule” I took the seat exactly across from him.
What the....I took a deep breath and told him about what Navin had told me and how that thing tears me up.
He listened to me carefully and asked me some random questions.
“ Okey, that’s enough for today then, I’ll prescribe you some medications for sleep but don’t be habitual with that,  Okay” I nod
Medicine will be helpful for my sleep but not for my pain, Well they say – the trees will grow- The leaves will come- burns will heal but scars, they’ll never fade away..
He hugged and told me to be here on next Saturday for the next session, I hope they’ll help me somehow.
I was feeling really tired of all of these things,
I walked to the front door and gasped.
Is he serious!!!