DARK SOUL'S: The Story You Started

ISHITA

I ran away from him as soon as possible,
He doesn’t have anything to do about that.  It’s my battle to fight and I don’t want to drag him into this darkness with me.
There is no way I’ll watch him to do anything,
I sit on the couch and stared at the ceiling,
What plans do you have for me, God? I couldn’t even cry now, My tears have gone dry on their own way, The pain I was feeling was gone and now I am feeling numb, I wish I’ll stay this way forever. There’s no need to feel anything.
Maybe I should call  Mr. Siraj, But I don’t want to leave this project.  I know Mr. Nicole’s has many hopes from me, Oh GOD! I gripped my hairs,
I want to scream!! Why my life has to be this difficult? I can’t even do a single thing I want to do. 
I searched for my phone and dialed his number. He received the call in the second ring,
“ Hey you,  Don’t you sleep!  And it’s early in the morning in here,” He said enthusiastically.
I glanced at the watch shit! It must be really early there.
“ Yeah sorry, did I wake you up?” I enquired and closed my eyes, Oh! don’t be mad at me Man, not now.
“ Yes, You shitty face” He yawned, I laughed at that.
“ I’ll call you later then”
“ No, now tell me! You don’t want to purchase doggy in there and if you want that, and called me this early to ask me about that;  I swear! this is your last day on this planet” He threatened me and I giggled,  He and his random thinking.
“ No! I  don’t want that yet, but I called you for another purpose,  can we just stick to that for a while” I said with authority
“ Jeez!! You need to loosen up,” He muttered.. “Anyway, what’s the matter;  Tell me that son of a bitch said something to you, I swear I’ll break his face with my bare hands.....”
“ Mr. SIRAJ, STOP!!” I shouted.  He really is impossible to stop, I wait for him to say something but he didn’t, So I start,
“ I was thinking, if you’ll replace someone for this project” I speak with uncertainty
“ WHAT?? WHY ISHITA?” He’s shocked, of course! I already have those feelings. I was prepared for this.
“ I was just thinking, you know I’m missing home, food, my job in there and everything. This place is not for me”  I rambled trying to be honest.
“ You better not to be lying with me, because if you were thinking about something that I couldn’t catch you, you are wrong....JUST so you know” His voice was stern.
SHIT!! Why I have to be such a shitty liar!!
I took a deep breath, I know I have to say the truth eventually and he’s waiting for me patiently.
“ UM_ I had a panic attack earlier and Ethan was there with me, I don’t want to see him again after that, you know I just can’t”
“ Did he ask something to you?” I can hear the concern in his voice.
“ I told him the truth,” I said plainly.
“ YOU DID? Wow, that’s nice, I’m sure he didn’t give you pity about that”,  He tried to make a light atmosphere, but there was something different in his voice now. Is he serious with this tone!!! Is he mocking me right now?
“ Why are you so happy about that? you are happy right?” This is the first time when I don’t know whatever is he thinking. He cleared his throat.
“ Yeah, Because maybe another country would help you to clear your damn mind, and then maybe you’ll stop blaming yourself” He explained.
“ And you think it’ll go away, How easy is that,” I said and shook my head.
“ Maybe you are right, it’s not that easy to forget that thing, but what’ll cost you to try that and not to run away from the things, If you’ve convinced yourself about dealing and living with this pain, then live with it. But remember one thing;  there’s a world out there from your comfort zone, and there’s someone waiting for you. And if you’ll give them a chance, They will drag you to their embrace” He said the words which are impossible to think about.
But still, I think about what he said apart from the last part, I closed that door long ago, It’s not that I’m looking for a knight in shining armour, who will come and put his hand around me; Then everything will be fine. This kind of things happens in that so Called fairy tales live, But I’ll not argue with him on that, He’s already pissed at me right now.
“ Are you even listening to me?” He asked annoyingly. when I failed to give him appropriate response on that,
I cleared my throat, “ Yeah, I am, I’m not running away but if it’s possible I want to visit there not in this month, I know it’s been just a few days since I’m here and I don’t want to put either of you guys in trouble with this project, I know it’s a sensitive topic,” I released long breath, That’s it ISHITA!  Now you have to deal with yourself. It’s time to focus on your work.
“ Yeah, that’s right! I was expecting that kind of words from you, but I’ll be there soon Ryan and I already had words so, .... and I’ll bring shrishti with me so be prepared for that.” He announced.
RYAN?? Oh, Mr. Nicole’s. 
I squeal in excitement and he laughs, “ I wasn’t expecting that expression from you, shuuu ..If she heard me now, I swear she’ll beat me my bones out” We both laugh and I started to feel light, We talk a few more minutes and hung up.
There are stars in the dark nights and they fall, every night! one by one,  To complete someone’s wishes, How tragic is that. They fall with there own pain and people think they’ll complete their wishes, It means they’ll bury themselves to give you something, How Bullshit is that?? But I have those stars in my life in the form of these people’s, Mom, and I guess Ethan too,, I mean they don’t have to do anything for me but still, they are doing.
I couldn’t sleep the whole night, I don’t know what tomorrow will bring to me,
In the morning, I get headed early to the office, on my way someone’s car abruptly blocked my path.

WHAT THE HELL!!

The windows slid down and there he was ETHAN!! I literally slapped my forehead with my palm.
“ Awhhh, Bet that was hard,” He shouted from inside and seriously, I slapped really hard myself again.
I perked up at him, and he winks, bloody... Dammit!!!
“ Why you blocked my way,” I demand.
“ Well, Good morning! I thought I’ll meet you in here and we have an early morning meeting so, Can you get in?” An early morning meeting? Shit, I haven’t seen any mails yesterday. I looked at my watch with wide eyes.
“ Hey, can you get in or you want me to open the door for you?” He smirked, he’s damn stupid smirk!
I rolled my eyes and opened the door to get in.
“ I thought you live in that condo” I inquired once I get in.
“ No, that’s our other home, where we live occasionally”. He stopped abruptly and frown at me.
“ What?” I asked and immediately he shook his head and start his car.  He is Freaking weird!!
Do I have something on my face? I take a glance at the rear-view mirror, NOPE- It’s nothing.  Maybe he losted his mind again. 
“ And you lived... Where?” I resume my talking. He looked at me with confusion, then understanding crept him.
Is he thinking about something? It looks like so,
“ Well near from your home, I really don’t want to navigate you right now, but if you would prefer I’ll love to show you” He started his thing again.
Dammit!! Why I bother to ask him anything,
But one thing thankfully, He neither bring any topic from yesterday’s incident nor asks me anything. I feel really glad about this, he respected me for my boundaries and maybe it’ll be easy to work with him again.
The ride was silent as usual, but the meeting was noisy as hell, They were arguing and I’m really on the edge to shut them up, I bite my tongue this whole time to stop myself and stared at them with wide eyes, Ethan and Rick look amused with this scenario and they laughed at me... Bastards...
God, I didn’t know if these kinds of meetings even exist!!
After that meeting, Rick hover over me continuously and asked me to get some coffee with him. I shrugged and nod thankfully Ethan’s not here this time. I don’t want to think about what he would have said now.
“ So, How paperwork is going,” Rick asked me in the cafeteria.
“ Good, I guess, we will see if we could modify some models with codding it’ll bring us good products and more solutions,” I said. He nodded. And something clicked me.
“ What’s with you and Ethan?” He was astonished by my question, but recovered and Shrugged.
“ Honestly, We dated the same girl, not at the same time though. I knew he has a girlfriend but I didn’t know it was Nisha, the same girl I was chasing, She doesn’t seem to mind. Eventually, I get to know. He has a past history with her, and by the way, She’s the worst girl I have ever met.” He spits the last word. I control my laughter, that was Epic thing. 
I swear I literally throw my coffee back into the mug and choked. Suddenly, there was a hand soothing me and rick was looking at me with wide eyes, Who’s that? I turned around to find Mr. Nicole looking down at me.
“ Oh, I’m fine Mr. Nicole’s, Thank you” I managed to get up from my seat.
“Am I interrupting something important?” He eyed both of us, Rick stands immediately from his seat.
“ No Sir, I have to leave now, See you Ishita,” He turned and left,  He was so awkward in front of him, does Mr. Nicole’s know that. I was trying to suppress my smile and he laughed,
“ Well, I knew that thing and Ethan well he still hates him” He answered my unspoken question. Am I easy to read? It must be my face!  Well, whatever I can’t change that. 
But, I am sure, I will use this information and tease Ethan Yesss!!!  He irritates me always and please himself, now it’s my turn.
Mr. Nicole took a seat in front of me and cleared his throat. “ Siraj is coming in a few weeks” He announced. “Yes, I know that” I acknowledge.
“ Of course! you do” I narrowed my eyes to him. Did he come here all way along to tell me that? The answer is No! He has something in his mind!
He cleared his throat again, “ Well, What if you signed that contract officially, you know so I’ll be secure.” He hesitates. I gave him a small amused smile. He’s insecure about me Wow!! Well, He has to be.
“ Of course I’ll, But can I request you something,” I asked.
“ Yes, sure”
“ What if we divide this contract into two terms” He gave me confused looks, so I tried to give him a rational reason.
“ Um_ I don’t know myself what I’m working, So there will be a great chance if I couldn’t be able to make it, and if that happens, in case!!  You’ll have someone who will be able to complete this project,” I said, He gave me an unimpressed look. I know it’ll bother him but I need to do that for his sake. It is acceptable and there are many sectors who prefer these conditions.
“ I need to think about that Ishita, but I may have to say this it’s not something I want from you”  He gets up without any other word and leaves me captivated with my thoughts.