DARK SOUL'S: The Story You Started

ISHITA

I tried my best to avoid him, But how long it’ll be possible to do this, I don’t know. After all, working with him under the same roof, It won’t take any longer for him to come face to face with me and that thing scared me like hell.
I knew it, He has something for me, Something more than concern, I really don’t want to dwell into that thinking but I know, I must be right at that. Thankfully he didn’t ask me anything,  Yet!
I was really frustrated with myself these days. I thought, I’ll keep myself in the cage and I’ll lock that door, I won’t let them open, Ever.
But they say the thing is, “Who on the one for you, will knock that door surely, and then it wouldn’t be possible for you to keep them closed.” But it depends upon you, what will you do? Right? Would you let them in? NO! Not going to happen. It’s not the thing I want.
I heard door knocked and my heart starts hammering in my chest, It’s not going to be okay, I have that feeling already.  And he walked in without my permission. I don’t bother to get up from my seat to greet him.
“ What you doing?” As if he can’t see what I am doing?
“ Working” I shrugged, trying not to meet with his eyes. I know if I’ll do that, It wouldn’t be easy for me to be on my own.
He walked toward me, Place his hands on either side of my chair, looks straight into my eyes while caging me. huh? What’s this? I was scared at first, but I tried my best to hide my nerves. He is not that Ethan I knew.
“ I know you are!, Always!” He rolled his eyes, “I’m here to talk with you,  And not to hear any of your excuses” He looked damn serious.
It must be serious, Mr. Siraj is coming and We have a lot of work to do. He came here for that, he must be.
Finally, I nod in acknowledgment and looked away. His gaze fixed on me, I can feel those blue eyes,  It’s so difficult to hide your feelings especially from the person, who’s there for you,  but I’ll do my best, and It’ll be best for both of us.
He kept starring at me and it really makes me, what? uncomfortable.
Finally, I cleared my throat to speak first “ Can you give me my personal space please” It does suffocate me.
He closed his eyes and moved away. Neither of us spoke and I don’t know why but it makes me really tensed.
“ Why are you avoiding me,” He says suddenly, My eyes widen from the shock but I managed my expressions to keep neutral.
“Me, Um_No” I shrugged Still not looking at him,
“ Yes, you are and you know that” He argued. The edge on his was evident that he’s been noticing me this whole time, Obviously!
“No, We must be busy that’s all, Don’t go so far” I managed to show him he’s wrong. “ Well, If you’ll excuse me, I have to go ” I stand, Take my files from the desk and walk past him.
Ethan’s fingers hold my arm in place, stopping me. I tried myself to calm down, taking steady breaths.
“ You shouldn’t have to be anywhere right now, Stop making these excuses and talk to me” He is really mad!
I turn, look at his hand, and back to his eyes, They’re dead serious. “ Please, I have to go, I have a pile of work to do” I try to move away but he holds me in place.
“ Ishita, save your shitty excuses for someone else, Why are you being this difficult with me” He raised his voice.
I sighed defeated, Facing the truth is really difficult to deal with. I don’t want him to think wrong about himself. But what should I do now? To tell him that I’m suspicious about him Or whatever the feelings he has for me? No! I can’t do that.
“ No, Ethan I’m not making any excuses, neither I’m being difficult with you. It’s just that, we were both busy in our individual work,” ugghh, Why I have to be such a shitty liar!
“ Do you have any other things to say, Because I’m not convinced yet!” He said.  Shit!!!
“ Ethan” I look into his eyes, Those are waiting for me to say something. He nods in encouragement and releases his grip on my hand as if he knows I won’t go away this time. I turn around to compose myself.
Well, thank you for this trust. At least!
“ It was just, I’m trying to be busy with myself, The day I was with you in your house and the nightmare, I don’t want you to think anything about me” I gripped the edge of my table until my knuckles get white. That wasn’t a lie but not the whole truth either.
He came behind me, stand beside me, and place his hand on mine. He brushed his fingers over my knuckles to loosen them up from the desk.
“ Don’t think small of you Ishita, You. Are. Perfect. in every way, Is that a real reason for you being distant with me?” He still couldn’t believe me, Why would he? I don’t want to tell him the whole truth. It’s just a matter of months and I’ll be in India again. I can pretend everything for him. I could. this whole time.
I nod my head in acknowledgment and look at him so he could see I’m serious.
He smiles back politely, “Then don’t do that, I’m not going to run over hills screaming like a small child, If you have any issues, I mean everyone has something in their lives, Don’t worry about them,” He said reassuringly.
“ Yup. Sorry for that, anyway can we resume our work now, your dad wouldn’t mind but Mr. Siraj will beat me” I rolled my eyes and he laughed. It feels relaxed without having anything over your shoulder to worry about, and I have to avoid his questions with concerns, I don’t want him to be miserable.
“ Yes, speaking about work. I had word with dad about something’s to show him when he’ll be here, We can do that right?” He plopped down on the chair and eyed me.
“ Of course, No worries. Name it and everything will be ready” I said with confidence. He laughed and shake his head.
I crossed my arms, and narrow my eye’s, Is he trying to offend me.
“ What?” He said trying to suppress his smile.
“ Did I say something wrong?” I don’t, Did I say something silly, why he’s laughing on me?
“No. You didn’t! But you just whine.” My eyes widen, I did that, No way, it just his crippy tactics again.
“ No, I don’t” I argued and he laughed, god knows why he’s so amused, Bipolar Bastard!
He gets up, looked at the files on the desk, and then at me.
“ You have work right, and We have to discuss what we can prepare for that meeting, Be in my cabin with these things,” He said and left my cabin. Leaving me cemented in my place.
He. Is. Impossible.
I resume my work then and gathered my all files then headed towards him.
I’ll never understand what’s going on in his mind, besides I don’t want to.

God bless me!