Her & her

Puzzle Pieces

People ask why I believe in soulmates

I have many answers

I tell them it's because I'm hopeful- that maybe if I believe hard enough or pray enough or hope enough or wish upon stars enough

- If I deserve it enough -

I'll have my very own happy ending

- one I have convinced myself I will never be gifted -

I'll ride into the sunset with the love of my life

- one I know I will only infect with the demons that haunt my veins -

I'll be the queen I have always wished I was

 - and I will wear my broken crown of thorns with the pride of a false king -

I tell them it's because my parents met at 15 backstage of their high school's production of whatever it was

- I know they've said but I've never listened -

I've seen them in love as long as I've been alive

 - I've never seen shadows jump from their lips because they have always made a point to argue behind closed doors -

I've heard what they went through together before I was born

- the murder of my namesake -

I've believed in true love because I've seen it in their eyes

- eyes that sparkle with the planets of a milky way only they can see -

I tell them it's because I'm a romantic at heart- that I dream of star-filled eyes that reflect only me

- even though I can't stand rom-coms, they only ever brandish knives at the snakes in my stomach -

Because I want to live in a world where happy endings exist

- if Harry Potter can get one, then why can't I -

Because I desperately want that for myself

- because he saved the world, obviously, all you've done is refuse to let your friends copy your homework and hide from your parents behind a stranger's smile -

Because I can't bring myself to face a world where I will be alone

 - the only word that rhymes with my name -

I don't tell them

Of course

It's really because of you

- it could never be anything else -