Her & her

Thoughts From A Good Night

Tonight I drank

And I didn't drink a little

But I didn't black out and I'm not bent over the toilet that I really need to clean tomorrow

Tonight I let out a piece of me that I don't normally allow to breathe freely

Tonight I was happy

Tonight I was confident

Tonight I made jokes

-good jokes even-

Tonight I was itchy, so I used my fancy, feel-good lotion on my legs, the one I got on my first Target run after I was released from the hospital, the one that I'm scared to use because it's so nice

Tonight I cleaned my face, sure it was only a makeup wipe, sure I didn't use soap and water, but it's a step in the right direction, right?

Tonight I stumbled across my dark room, feet unsteady from the whiskey I downed earlier, but I remember every step so I'm not an alcoholic yet right?

This time I drank not in sadness

but this time in

joy for the day

for trying something new

for success

for reaching out to friends instead of waiting on them to make a move

Tonight I drank to the stars, to the storms, to the moon

Tonight I toasted the earth, the seas, the wind

Tonight I didn't think of you

Tonight I lived for me