Hello Elizabeth
Today has been a good day
It's been so long since I have been able to say those six words without them slicing my throat and searing the silver tongue that entrances my therapists
But not quite so long since I last branded my lies on my forearms in a witch's pact with the devils in my windpipe
I made friends last night with total strangers
I hope you're proud of me
It was so hard to smile at first but then I couldn't stop laughing
I don't even remember what we talked about
The only thing I remember is wrapping my arms around Qiyanna's waist as she leaned against mine, her slim form obscured by my rolls of fat and baggy button up
Today I've had so much coffee to keep the clouds away
And its worked
So far
- there's a reason why I say "An espresso a day keeps the depresso away" -
Today has been a good day
A cat is curled up on my lap
His soft snorts filling me with memories of his sweets-stealing escapades
Keeping not just my legs warm
But my heart
Even though it continues to convince me my favourite season is that of dead trees and yellow grass even though I love wildflowers
I'm going to dinner with friends tonight
And I'm not dreading it
- and I'll probably have even more coffee at Shoes
no I'm not running from anything, why do you ask? -
For once I can look forward to it
So yes,
Today has been a good day
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Her & her
PoetryAn intimate look into my journey from the perfect Catholic girl with internalized homophobia to a girl who is almost okay with her queer identity. Features poems on my journey of self-discovery and acceptance through my struggles with mental health...
