𝔼𝕣𝕒𝕤𝕖 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥? [ON HOLD]

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A/n: This hurts me. Writing this kinda deep stuff hurts me on a lvl that's hard to understand. I hope that anybody who has been/had selfed harmed or thought of suicide, knows that they are loved.

I love you bitches with all of my heart and it hurts me to think that any of you would do that. I love you all in like a motherly way! You are so sweet and supportive and now I'm just talking to talk.

I just want everyone who has or is going through something similar but long term, that you find someone who can listen to you, sort some shit out and make you feel valid. Because no matter what your health is most important and they come second.

I love you all so much 💚

Alright now back to our regular scheduled programming!
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I had taken the written part of the finals finally, it also seemed like Eijiro was near me more often. I had went back to school on Wednesday and spoke for the first time to everyone... again. It was quiet interesting.

"Whoa! Can you change the pitch of your voice now?"

"How will this affect your quirk?"

"Do you know how it works?"

Like I said. Quite interesting with the constant question and answer technique.

But the thing that freaked me out the most was how I was scaring. The places where I had hurt myself were now scabs, but they were annoying as hell, not to mention not easy to hide.

I will never harm myself again. I swore to Eijiro I wouldn't.

It was about lunch time on Thursday when Kat- no. Bakugou talked to me again. I had been sitting with our normal group of friends when I feel a nudge from the dude.

I look to him, trying my darn best not to put any hatred behind my eyes to not give myself away, and he nods to the door.

I narrowed my eyes, I didn't want to talk to him. But if this was to clear the air a little.. maybe. Because I totally never liked this son of a bitch.

He walks first, yet I don't follow. Unable to make my mind up wether to go or stay though, I go. I follow his steps to the hallway, where I see the tuft of blonde hair.

I storm his way and he notices me at the last second before I punch him square in the jaw. He looks at me, astonished.

"You have a good punch..." He mumbles. Rubbing his already bruising cheek. I huff and cross my arms, leaning to one side and tapping my foot.

"What do you want?" His face shows no emotion. Great start buddy, if you want me on your side you need to prove that you are a human being, not some other shit.

"You." He says dead serious.

"That ship has sailed, now, what do you want?" I say the last part more harsh this time since I'm repeating myself.

"What do you mean? I told you!" I frown. I'm not a thing he can just posses.

"Is there a reason you want me other than because you allegedly "like" me?" His face turns into a deeper frown.

"No, and I wasn't lying either."

"Really? Cause I find that pretty hard to believe!"

I watched as he took a deep breath, obviously nervous with the way his hands seemed to be sweating and his brows pulled together, "Feelings are weird as all hell, I don't know if it was before the USJ or after but they came and they won't go away. I tried to fight myself, didn't work and then the old hag got interested and now I know what I'm feeling."

I started tearing up. Mainly because I didn't think he liked me that way, I also just didn't know how to feel.

"I-I... I-I had thought you wanted to m-manipulate me.. u-use m-me.. that I was merely a t-toy for you to p-play with." I watch as his eyes grow wide, and then tears started at the edges of his eyes.

"I would never do that you fucking dumbass." I looked into his eyes with my own black ones, in his held pain. Unimaginable pain. But also a small bit of hope. Hope for the future.

"Are you telling the truth?"

"Why would I have a reason to lie? I have nothing to gain from bullshitting things." He says finally calming himself down.

"In that case, I going to tell you a secret only Eijiro knows about." He looked at me, puzzled by my choice of words.

"You dating Shitty Hair?" My jaw fell open and I started waving my arms.

"No! Hell no! I see him as a brother. We established that right before the USJ."

"Fooled me." He said with a growing smirk. I just smirked through my tears.

"You're an asshole." I giggle.

"Already noted."

"Good I wouldn't want you to forget." I laughed again, already feeling better. How could one person make me feel so much?

"Anyways, you can't tell anybody, not only would it be a safety violation for me, but you, Eijiro, and my parents." He quirks his eyebrows at that.

"What could a shorty like you keep that's so bad?"

"A hell of a lot actually. I'm Mr. Aizawas daughter, surprise you? Probably not since you are very observant." I joke, but watch as his face pales.

"You're kidding right?" I grow concerned, Katsuki is never like this.. "I literally insulted, cussed, and acted like a child around your fucking Dad! How bad could this get?" I shrugged.

"I don't know, but you wanna find out?" He scowled at me.

"I'm not that fucking stupid dumbass." I chuckled at his remark, though I wasn't too phased by it. I grab his hand.

"Why are you so worried about that?" He opens his mouth but before anything more comes out the bell rings for our last class. The practical.

"We can talk more later, let's just get to fucking class." He goes to pull away from my grasp but I tighten my hold on him while looking ahead.

I felt my heart melt as he brushed a strand of my hair behind my ears before lacing his fingers with mine.

Maybe this could only get better.