𝔼𝕣𝕒𝕤𝕖 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥? [ON HOLD]

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Lily's POV

Ugh.

Why can't I stop getting hurt? Katsuki said he would be back.. but when? It's been too quiet since he left. I wanted him to come back.

Yeah I had just enough control to use my hand, but that took a full day to get. How'd he expect me to get full control in less than that?

When he came in Saturday... I wanted to cry. I made him worry, I made him sob. That's not fair.

Wake up! Cmon! Wake up! I pushed myself, trying my hardest to gain control.

Imagine being in the ocean, the deepest point... and trying to swim from there to the surface. The pressure squishing your lungs, and the lack of light from being so deep. I was trying my hardest to swim but it was as if my body wasn't responding.

"Oi." I hear the familiar voice, making my heart speed up in excitement. "I see you missed me. Can you smell your favorite?" I was confused, what was he talking about? Smell it?

I stuck with our simple communication, one squeeze for yes, two for no. I tried to gain enough control to smell something, successfully breathing in on my own, and inhaling the smell of the Wendy's. Or was that just my imagination?

He grabs my hand and I give a hard squeeze. "That grip is stronger than yesterday. Have you been working on control?" I gave another squeeze. "Knew it. I knew you were a fighter." I hear his laugh, making my heart full with warmth.

I loved this man.

I give my all in my next attempt, trying to convey all my emotions into that simple gesture. Fighting to say what I want.

"You better keep this to yourself when you fucking wake up." I am confused before my train of thought is cut off. "But I really miss you stupid."

I wanted to cry, I want to hug him, give him all my love. Gods damnit! Let me speak!

"Ka........" I tried, able to get only part of his name out of my still body. LET ME SPEAK!

"Kat......." Good enough.

"No way." I hear him whisper, "Am I going crazy? Did you just fucking talk?" I give two squeezes, waited, and then gave a strong one. He certainly wasn't going crazy, and I did just fucking talk. Haha. You thought.

"If you can fucking talk why can't you wake up huh? Is it hard?" I give one squeeze and he sighs, "I can't give you food if you aren't awake dry eyes. Choose one." I inwardly grumbled at him.

I was focusing on breathing on my own already, talking was hard cause I seemed to have something shoved down my throat, like plastic, how'd he expect me to open my eyes as well?!

Even so, I still needed to try, I was missing school and information. Along with that I'm worrying everyone, including my fathers.

I needed to wake up and I needed to figure out how to now.

"Try focusing your efforts to solely opening your eyes you dumbass." I again inwardly sighed before doing just that. I stopped worrying about breathing on my own, letting the machine take over for me, and didn't worry about moving anything. My hand went limp.

"Shit, Wait- come back!" My boyfriend panicked, I could hear his breath becoming ragged and forced. Like he was hyperventilating.

I forced one eye to open, the bright lights making me immediately regret opening it fully. Ouch.

I looked around frantically to try and find his face, successfully doing so. "Lily..?" His face held a look of bewilderment before a frown. "Goddamnit dumbass! You freaked me out!"