Up and Down love

Part 4

Anna:

The ride to soccer practice has never felt this long. Just the thought of one day Ag was a "friend" and now she's my girlfriend... Do I even know what I am getting myself into? I've never been in something like this before, especially with a girl. 

Practice went pretty well and I was able to take my stress out on the field and managed to even score the majority of the goals in the scrimmage. 

After it was over some of the girls decided to go out to eat. I thought about texting Ag that I would be coming home late, but I knew eating out wouldn't take that long. Plus I could leave early if needed

(Just finished up the dinner)

When I got back into the car I realized how late it was...11pm. I told her I would be back at 9... I mean what could be the issue was that. Before I hit the road I checked my phone. (4 missed calls from Ag). "Shit..." No use on calling if I'm on my way there.

When I got home the porch light was still on, but the light in my room was not. I went up the stairs and quietly opened my door. I snuck myself to the shower and got all nice and fresh. I was still hot so I was just in shorts and a sports bra.

I could see Ag was asleep in bed so I opened the sheets and got in. I was flipped away from her. Suddenly I feel her move and she pulls me into her.

Ag:

"I was worried you know and I called you 4 times."

Of course I was worried. Everything worries me. Even if it was 2 hours after she said and she is now safe in my arms. You think you have someone one moment and the next they can be gone.

"I'm sorry for not letting you know, but some the of the girls wanted to go out to eat. Honestly I didn't think I was going to be this late."

Anna put her hand on mine and used her thumb to rub

She continued, "I think I'm just not used to reporting back to someone..."

I scoffed, "Well you never have to report in. Just if your out and your going to be out later I would like to know that your okay. It's because I care."

"Well maybe you care to much."

I let her go and pushed back

"What does that even mean."

She got up and looked down at her hands.

"I should be able to go out with my friends without having to tell you. We are official for a couple hours and you already are trying to control me."

My eyes widened, "Excuse me? Your getting control and caring really mixed up here. You know damn well I don't care if you go out with friends. As your girlfriend I am going to worry. I couldn't stand the fact of something happening to you."

"WELL MAYBE I DON'T WANT A GIRLFRIEND! THEN YOU WON'T HAVE TO WORRY!"

I didn't even say anything when the words slipped off her lips. What would even be the point...

"Okay Anna, I get it."

I scooted away and flipped so that I wasn't facing her. I get it though. Maybe it was to fast or this simply wasn't the way that I thought things would go.

"Ag...I...I didn't mean it in that way...It's just hard..."

I tried to hold back, but I couldn't. "What's hard huh? Loving me?! Caring about me?! Kissing me?! What is so hard when we haven't ever fought or disagreed until now. We were fine and suddenly once we put a label which YOU enforced! We suddenly have a problem. Then you come back late and snap because I was worried about you?! How does that work. What is so damn hard about that? If you don't want this Anna then it won't happen! I will always be by your side and if that means as a friend then so be it!" 

Anna:

I was speechless... Actually speechless because she was right. Why am I so worried? She has never hurt me or given me a reason to be pissed off. This was my fault and my thoughts coming against myself. I looked back up and met Ag's eyes. The pain that filled them killed me...

"Any comment? No? Whatever... I'm going to sleep on the couch downstairs... My head is pounding."

I watched as she grabbed a pillow and blanket and headed out the door. I still said nothing. Nothing wanted to come out. I really fuc*ed this one up.

Ag:

Nothing...She said nothing. Maybe that was her answer. 

When I set up the couch and layed my head down there was no use in staying up. Even if all the thoughts bombarding my mind said otherwise. Next thing I felt myself drift asleep...

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(Damn this one came to a weird end, but get ready for part 5) ;)

Also sorry I update this hours at a time. I take care of my Nana at night so when she is asleep is the only time I get to type <3