Up and Down love

Part 21

Ag:

A huge chunk of me didn't know why I hugged her back... I so badly wanted to push her back, but I couldn't.

"Anna you know how when there was no label, there was no stress?" She lifted her head and her eyes became cloudy. "I think we need to go back to that."

"What do you mean?"

I couldn't even look at her, "Maybe we should take a break?"

She got off of me and sat on the edge of the bed with her face in her hands. "Whatever you think is best."

I leaned back on the headboard and crossed my arms. "Don't you think?"

 She picked up her phone and started scrolling, "Yeah Ag, but I can't leave until 2 days. There aren't any earlier flights..."

"We can make it work." I wasn't breaking up with her, but they're just isn't any trust. We promise each other one thing and then break it the next. 

The next two days were completely weird. We did talk, but it was just random small talk. When we went to bed we were on completely different sides. No cuddles or morning hugs. Which was to be expected, but it was time to give each other space.

The morning of her leaving we didn't say a word to each other until I took her to her plane. 

She turned before boarding, "So I guess this is where I head off for a while."

"I don't even know..."

"Okay then." She picked up her bags and gave me a slight smile. I watched her about to step in line, but I bolted toward her. I put my arms around her and squoze. She dropped her bags and  squeezed me. "I love you, Anna."

She let go of me and pulled away a little. "love ya too." 

That was that. Gone. She didn't even look back...

Anna:

Don't look back, don't look back, don't look back!

I looked and she wasn't there anymore. 

I held back my tears as hard as possible, but once I sat down a tear slipped down my cheek. 

Just wasn't even sure what a break meant. How long is a break?

Ag:

When I pulled in the driveway I turned the car off and sat in silence. I opened up the sunroof and put my seatback. Thousands of stars. So big and bright. Anna was the only star that I wanted, but a break was a good idea. Right? Yeah. 

I slowly put the seat back up and put my head on the wheel.

"FUC*!!!" My fists slammed into the steering wheel until they throbbed in pain. I felt so numb I didn't know how to function. 

I got out of the car and went to the front door. Stomped my way up the stairs and slammed my door. 

Guess I just had to focus on the fact it's just a break, not a breakup...

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How y'all feel about this "break"? 

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