Up and Down love

Part 8

Anna:

After my tears cleared my face I ended up falling asleep on Ag. I have never felt so safe with someone. I'm not saying one is better than the other, but I have never felt this way with a guy. With girl's there is such a deeper connection because you can connect on an emotional level. 

With Ag there was everything. In such a short amount of time, I had fallen hard. I had given myself in a way that I thought I never could. A way that I thought would never be possible. 

I wished this for everyone. For everyone to find that special person. The one that makes them whole and there smiles alone could make everything better. I know that there are so many people out there that are broken and that one person could make it all better.

I've always lived up to my family's standards when it came to love. So I have never reached out my horizons to anything else. I have always felt caged by what they want. Never able to form the life that I want. 

I have to date a boy

I have to have all A's

I have to make it to the University of Michigan

I have to...

There is so much more but other than the University it all isn't what I want. I want to be successful and on the journey have the one I love by my side. To live my dreams and travel the world. To make a difference and stand for all that I believe. With my family that's not how it works. You got by the rules and never ask otherwise...

Ag:

She was the girl. The girl I want to spend it all with and make everything I ever dreamed come true. She gave me hope in not just me, but love. Each girl I have ever been with has cheated. You could say it was my choice for poorly choosing, but I wasn't the one that did it. 

Anna isn't the only one that is scared of this relationship... If I get hurt one more time I think I will have to give up on love. 

I'm scared that if I care and put too much in then in the end it will hurt even worse when it's over. 

It's not over though and that is what I have to remember... She is here, in my arms snuggled up. She is not leaving. She is not like other girls. She is my girl

I will cherish and love her till the day I die. That may be a lot for a new relationship. I just have a feeling this will be an Up and Down kind of love and those should be adored and learned from. 

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I know this one is short and I am sorry! Also sorry I haven't been on, things have been tense in the household...

New things coming soon! <3