𝑵𝑪𝑻 𝒇𝒍𝒖𝒇𝒇/𝒔𝒎𝒖𝒕

number 37

title: 𝑰𝒏𝒔𝒆𝒄𝒖𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒆𝒔// 𝑱𝒆𝒏𝒐
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Y/N has always been insecure of her body form ever since a young age due to her family always telling her how far she was and how she was never gonna be pretty, she had always been down about herself. sometimes she would even starve herself for some days but then wouldn't be able to handle it. she wasn't skinny, nor was she fat, she was in between. Y/N has never really been happy with her imagine. she's never showed anyone her body. it was always covered up. she's been trying to love herself but she just couldn't. she'd cry herself to sleep most of the time, but she kept trying her best, always work out and try to eat healthy but still wasn't as satisfied with herself. after 2 years she slowly started to like her image but not completely.

[present time]
Y/N and Jeno have been dating for a year now. to this point y/n still hasn't shown her body to anyone, not even jeno. he understood how y/n felt and what she went through since a young age until now. Y/N and jeno went to the gym together and Y/N wouldn't wear only a sports bra like most girls at the gym would, instead you should try to keep herself covered up "you look so pretty, why don't you take off your shirt?" a girl came up to Y/N and she stopped ridding the bike(?) "oh, i'm more comfortable like this" she awkwardly smiled at the girl "come on just this once i usually see you here" "no i'm fine, but thanks" jeno came next to Y/N and held her hand because he could see that she started to panic a bit "if she's comfortable with her shirt on, she's gonna keep it on, if you're just going to tell her to take it off you might as well go back to what you were doing because she's not gonna do what you say" she looked dumbfounded and just walked away. as soon as she left jeno looked at y/n.

"are you ok y/n" he caressed her cheek and she smiled "yes, thank you jeno" she smiled and jeno wiped some sweat off of her forehead. "ok ok" he gave her a small kiss and went back to doing his weight lifting. y/n sighed and put her hand over her chest and calmed down, she started to use the bike(?) again. some time passed and y/n was now stretching so her body wouldn't hurt as much the next day "y/n wanna go walk around the city once we get washed up?" "oh sure, that'll be fun" she gave jeno a smile and jeno smiled as well and showed his cute crescent moon eyes. the eyes y/n adored. as you two walk back to the car he opened the windows right away since it was still hot. as jeno drove you looked out the window and couldn't stop thinking of what happened today. you hugged yourself and relaxed your body "don't think about what she said, she shouldn't be telling you what do" jeno held your hand and made a slight turn as he drove. "yeah, you're right, can i shower first?"

"sure, i was planning on showering first but i'll let you shower first" you smiled "thank you" "no problem" soon enough you guys arrived home and you walked up to your shared room and took your towels to the bathroom, jeno stayed in the living room for the time being. as you took off your clothes and looked at yourself in the mirror "what if..i show him my body..? no he'll hate it.." i looked at myself more and still weren't satisfied with yourself. your body was your biggest insecurity. always overthinking if he'll end up liking your figure or leaving you due to how your body form was. you shook your head to stop thinking about that. you got in the shower and let the warm water hit your skin, you felt relaxed. as you washed your body you felt more relaxed. showering was probably your favorite thing to do since the water sound made you feel calm.

you wrapped your towel around your hair body and walked back to your room and brushed your hair first and scrunched it up a bit to get some waves. as you put in your underwear and bra you heard the door open and you tensed up, you panicked, didn't know what to do, you just looked at him through the mirror and he blankly stared at you. you could feel tears start to fall. "he's not saying anything..he hates it..he's gonna leave...why won't he say anything..i knew it he finds my body figure.." thoughts filled your head as he walked a bit closer. you faced him and stepped back, you tried your best to cover yourself with your hands but your body was still visible. you crouched down and hugged yourself as you cried "l-leave..p-p-please.." jeno went on his knees and opened his arms so you could hug him. you slowly stopped hugging yourself and looked at him. "please?" you went to him and hugged him tightly. as you continued to cry, he caressed your head and planted a soft kiss on your wet hair.

"y-you think i-i'm ugly...?" you said as your breathing increased "no no, i think your beautiful baby, you're stunning, you're body is so pretty, i know you have a difficult time loving your body figure, i love your body and i know you don't fully love your body but at the same time you're slowly starting to love it, you're beautiful remember that, your body is amazing and you're beautiful, Baby dont overthink about that,  You can't imagine how much i love your body, Dont hide it to me, I love you and your body, Your the prettiest girl in the world, Never forget that ok?" this brought a smile to your face and you hugged him tightly "you really think so?" he chuckled and kept caressing your head "of course" "thank you so much😢🤧" Dont say thank you baby, cause it's the truth" i love you so much jeno🥺" "I love you too y/n, my beautiful girl on the inside and outside, i love you so so much" you held on to him tightly and sniffed

"i love you too jeno, thank you for being the best boyfriend ever, you're the first person to ever see my body ever since young, i trust you because i know that you won't put me down or make me feel bad about myself, thank you so much" "no need to thank me, i'll always be here for you and i will never ever make you feel bad about yourself, i promise"  you wiped away your tears and broke the hug and held his hands "thanks again" you looked at him in the most loving way and so did he, he connected your lips with his and gave you a kiss full of love. "ok, go shower because you're still sweaty" you giggled and he wiped away your remaining tears and gave you a small peck and you two stood up, he hugged you and caressed your exposed back "i love you" "i love you too jeno, now go shower you smelly boy" he giggled and so did you.

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i know many people feel insecure about themselves and so do i, i myself have a hard time liking my body figure but just know, we are all beautiful ❤️🥺