I've been too cautious
Never have I let myself dare to dream of adventure
It feels like I've been wasting these years
Trying to please my mother
Being the picture perfect daughter
Staying in my mold
Never speaking up in class
Never laughing too loud
Covering up
Never going to parties
Barely ever drinking
Fearing drugs
Alcohol
Fun
Music
People
With a stick up my ass
But i should be adventurous
Going out on hikes in the middle of nowhere
Letting myself be spontaneous
Wild
Discovering new places
People
Things
Learning what I do like
And don't
Learning new stories to tell
Trying new things
Letting myself be free
As I promised myself when I was eleven
After all
I'm out of the closet
About most things
I know my boundaries
Nothing should be stopping me
Fuck it
I'm getting a new tattoo
And a new piercing
And I'm going to more parties
Cuz that last one was epic
I'm putting myself out there in the dating game
Not kissing up to anyone I don't have to anymore
I'm buying that ps4
And that laptop
And I'm going trying a new cuisine
I'm going to take care of myself
Just like I take care of others
There's only one me
And I'm about to get to know me
YOU ARE READING
Whatever
RomanceA collection of stories, all in different formats, about life. There is no end goal, only truth, pain, lust, joy, sarcasm, irony and self awareness. Tread lightly as this story mentions some of my experience with SA. Good luck 🤞
